Hello. My name is Atheria and I’m an Out-of-Body-Aholic. If you lived in constant head and neck pain since Oct. 1, 1995 you wouldn’t want to be in your body either. (To fellow chronic pain sufferer, Lady GaGa…I feel you and can relate. Also, get your diet as alkaline as possible as that has been proven to help fibromyalgia.) Granted, I can’t 100% blame my popping out of body on physical pain, but it does contribute. I tend to be very ungrounded because of my mediumship and channeling gifts and have a hard time REALLY being in my body. After meditating years ago in Los Angeles, I went to go walk a few blocks to Trader Joe’s and twice during the 1/2 mile walk I suddenly realized that I was over 6′ tall. Keep in mind that I’m actually 5’1 3/4″ tall. But, my vantage point when I looked down at my feet was clearly higher up than it should have been. I had to will myself back down into my body. It got to be kind of funny, actually. I popped out, and tugged myself back in while reprimanding myself. 🙂
Being ungrounded brings me back to part of yesterday’s verbose post…yoga. I know, I know. I whined and complained about being tired of HAVING to do yoga and HAVING to do anything. I had a temper tantrum. As much as I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE dancing like a Whirling Dervish on amphetamines (not that I know what speed is like), and I will continue to dance more often, dancing isn’t really grounding for me. If anything, it makes me lose touch with my body even more. The music takes me over and I lose myself. Now, that is beneficial at certain times, but since I have ungrounded tendencies, I really do need to do something physical that brings me fully into my body. Re-enter the stage…yoga.
After skipping just one day’s yoga routine, when I went through my bone and muscle building series of poses tonight, it was oddly harder. My body was noticeably sore/painful and stiffer than normal. It was rather annoying, but also caused me to really pay attention to what my body was telling me. I didn’t have Rhianna belting out songs about whips and chains exciting her to distract me from myself. I am sticking with yoga, as my constricted with chronic pain body needs it. That being said, I am not going to freak out that the world will come to an end if I have to skip a day due to some event I need to attend or something. Gotta loosen up a bit on the obsessive/compulsive thing.
As another follow-up to last evening’s post, my fellow vegan friend (and FABULOUS baker), Alaine, suggested that…regarding me not knowing EXACTLY what to write and being aggravated that my unseen friends don’t get more specific…I simply set aside some time every day (just like I do for my yoga) to write whatever just pops into my head, a.k.a. comes to me to write. That is reminiscent of Julia Cameron’s “morning pages” from the famous book, “The Artist’s Way”. It would be better to do this first thing upon awaking as Julia suggests, but I just don’t have time for that on workdays. I’m always rushed. I’ll call Alaine’s suggestion “whenever pages”. Ha! And don’t worry, when I start doing this tomorrow, it won’t be blogged every single day. I’ll give you guys and gals a break from my posting. Alaine may be correct that by at least setting the intention to write something…anything…it will get my creative juices flowing again. It’s certainly worth a try. Of course, I would appreciate my unseen friends helping out with this…hint.
I’m still very torn about whether to try to leave New Mexico when able to after November 14th or not. Everywhere I’m interested in moving either has cruddy weather, high crime, crap jobs, or unbelievably high cost of living with horrid traffic. I will start looking for new opportunities next month, but emails like this from a Santa Fe Meetup friend tug at me. I really am finding a lovely tribe of people here in Northern New Mexico. I wish something felt totally right and that things would align. (Names deleted to protect the innocent. LOL)
Honestly I think there is something to respect and honor in your willingness to go into creepy places to work and assure your security. I like to think that you are having a real influence in lightening things up there and bringing in a higher vibe. I know you just have to make sure it doesn’t get under your skin! Hopefully you have lots of protection from many wise and even holy ones.
I also sense a growing itch in you to get out of here! Whatever unfolds I personally (and kinda selfishly) hope you will be here for awhile because you are a delightful addition to Sunday! We all get such a kick out of you, enjoy you and benefit from your considerable gifts.
Have a decent workweek! You are a bringer of joy and play and laughter so I sure hope they appreciate you there!
She touches on something in this wonderfully kind letter that I have realized but don’t know how to fix. With only one exception (Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy!), all of my jobs have had a lot of darkness that I was sent to shift. I’ve had so many people comment on the fact that I changed the energy of a workplace and filled it with light that I cannot deny it. That’s great and all that, but it’s horribly draining and not good for me. I don’t want to do that anymore. It’s exhausting. I just want to be in a light-filled place where I can have fun! I will say that even in the dark places, I create fun when and where I can. I happen to work with great people right now, so they make everything better…but…the basic environment is just not where this creative free spirit should be. But, I’ve got to pay the rent.
Before signing off, I have to link this UFO abduction story that took place at the Hotel del Coronado in San Diego years ago. I had never heard of this amazing mass abduction until today! It seems very impressive in detail.