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Life Between Lives Hypnotic Regression Session on Aug. 28, 2015

I have been wanting a life-between-lives hypnosis regression session for years, so when my fellow psychic medium friend, Renee Buck (www.whispersfromthelight.com) stayed with me for 2 days while driving across country and offered a session, I said yes.  I am dealing with an almost 20 years long constant pain issue (along with other things) that has gotten much worse since the beginning of July, so I was hoping for some insight about my head/neck hell.  I already knew that I’ve been killed by my neck numerous times, including on July 19, 1692 in Salem during the Witch Trials.

The session was fascinating, emotionally hard at times as realizations came flooding through, physically hard (major aching in my arms and legs), and jaw dropping with WOW moments.  Renee took me back to my childhood, birth experience, and while I was in the womb.  A neck related thing showed up when I was around 4.  I was with my mom (assuming dad and sister too, but don’t know) at a petting zoo type place (may have been Lollipop Farm in the Rochester, NY area) when somehow I fell or got pushed down by a little herd of goats or sheep or something.  I can remember the panic and all I could see was stomachs and legs of the animals as they walked over me.  Mom reached down in and yanked me out to safety.  But, I sustained some damage to my neck at C5-C6.  I’m getting new x-rays and a new MRI tomorrow, but do know that there is a herniated disc at C5-C6 that showed up years ago, and my neck suddenly bends in the wrong direction at that point.

In the womb things were okay except that I could feel my mother’s anxiety.  I knew she wanted me, but was very anxious and nervous about becoming a mother.  Before birth, I was really upset.  I felt abandoned by my guides and felt that they had coerced me into taking on way too may difficulties and challenges in this life.  I did not want to be born.  I wanted desperately to back out of the agreement.  That’s probably why mom was in labor for so many hours.  I was refusing to come out.  She was heavily drugged during it, so when I did finally pop out, I don’t remember interacting with her right away.  The lights were so bright!  The sudden light in my face and loud noises bothered me.  I recalled one male doctor and 3 nurses.

Renee then took me back further and there was this moment when I saw this garden that I described as an English type garden with lots of manicured bushes and such, but not as many flowers, but when Renee said, “Or like France” I suddenly knew I was seeing Versailles’ gardens!  I have LONG felt I lived at the Palace of Versailles long ago due to a life I glimpsed in 1988.  At one point during the session as Renee was leading me to deeper levels, I walked down this glass staircase that was pretty…with wooden railings.

Renee then suggested I go to a past life where I also had psychic gifts, and used them in a beneficial way.  I was suddenly seeing what looked like a monastery in Tibet, but felt Nepal.  I may have been near the border as I have a strong connection to the Ganesh Himal region.  I saw my feet and I was wearing sandals made of yak skin/leather with horse hair twine stuff tying them together.  I was dressed in tan/orange robes.  I was a 14 year old Buddhist monk.  I was on my way to the market to pick up some supplies for the monastery as they requested the younger monks do chores like that.  But, I liked going to the market because there was a girl I loved from afar who worked there.  She had long dark hair.  I pined for her, but knew that we could never be a couple.  I had been chosen to be a monk because of “seer” qualities I had shown when very young.  I had dreams that came true, etc.  I had been considered to be gifted and special.  I had been “chosen” and I respected the responsibility bestowed upon me.  I took it very seriously and put duty and honor before personal desire and knew I was giving up ever having a normal life.  But, I loved her…and it made my heart ache.  I went through a special “ordination” ceremony when I was 16 and then we jumped forward to when I was about 65.  I had become a very respected teacher and taught other young monks about how to attain connection to the divine.  I taught with compassion and not a heavy hand.  There was always a slight glimmer of sadness about the girl, but I accepted the sacrifices I made as I accomplished a lot that was important.  She did end up getting married to someone else and had a nice life.  I died at age 72 in year 1147 after an illness.  On my deathbed I was surrounded by chanting monks and I meditated on the bardo.  There were lit candles around the room.

After I died, I went out into the universe and saw billions of stars.  Two guides then greeted me and led me, one on each side, by my shoulders as we flew to the Other Side.  There was an “Emerald City’ type crystal building that emitted green light and as we floated along the path leading to the huge double doors, I looked down and realized that the path was made of water!  We were “walking on water”!  I was led into this large, all white room with a crescent shaped desk.  I stood facing the table (the arc of the crescent faced me) as the 2 spirit guides stayed with me but stepped slightly behind me.  At the table were 7 beings.  The one in the middle was quite a bit bigger than the 6 others, and felt male.  I say “felt male” because the inner aura was pink.  He had long-ish blonde hair and blue eyes.  They all wore white judge type robes.  His name was Halcyon.  I found out that I have carried something over from that Buddhist life that I shouldn’t have.  I have thought that I needed to go through life alone in order to be successful with my spiritual work.  I subconsciously have felt that a partner would be a distraction and hold me back.  I have felt I’ve needed to sacrifice like the Buddhist monk did…which is incorrect.

It also came up that I knew Renee from another one (at least I think it was a separate life) of my Buddhist past lives.  I knew of 2 before yesterday.  She had been my teacher in one.

Also at the table was Lisette, my fairy guide (her purpose is to lighten me up and make me laugh), and Latho, who is more stern and hits me in the back/right part of my head when I’m being stupid about something.  The soul I know as my Grandpa Slovik was there (in the room, not at the table), Uncle Chuckie, an ex boss named Don Kline, and 2 Spiritualist reverends from my past, Frances Scher and Eveliani (Evelyn) Chaneske (Gilbert).

It came out that my serious health challenges for years DO have a purpose.  Their purpose is to teach me compassion for others so that when I teach, I don’t teach too sternly.  It was made clear that my true work is as a teacher.  I was told that the things I’m doing now to try to help my health are the right things to do.  Whether I’ll ever be totally out of pain was kind of vague, but I will be getting help…and at least will improve.

I was told that it’s true I’m very connected to the entire Rocky Mountains region…Colorado and New Mexico.  I will finally be freed up to leave Albuquerque, energetically, after I get the help I need for my head and neck issue.  I was told that my presentation at the November NM UFO/Paranormal Forum will lead to my real work taking off.  I will be traveling around to speak and teach in upcoming years and will get invitations to appear at various events around the country.  Supposedly, I’ve already been teaching at all of the office jobs I’ve ever had as you can teach without realizing it.

Just very briefly, my Salem Witch Trials life did come up and it seems I was Sarah Good.  Reading about her life is upsetting.  I did NOT kill animals as they said.  Under hypnosis in 2002 I remember doing herbal healing work on animals in the woods.

Sarah Good Grave Marker

Sarah Good Grave Marker

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sarah_Good_(Salem_witch_trials)

Supposedly, I also knew Renee in that life.  She was a sympathizer in the “audience” and was young.  I got the name Gretchen Winthrop for her.  I do know that being hung in that life is affecting my neck now.  I’ve tried to release it, but it’s been hard.  I was told I need to let go of the anger and hatred toward those who killed me in order to let go of the energetic neck trauma.  THAT will be a challenge.

Supposedly I have indeed 2 past lives in New Mexico.  One as a Colorado Ute where I came down into the Taos area to trade, and one as a Mescalero Apache.  I was told that I was brought to New Mexico to heal.

I am probably forgetting stuff that came up yesterday, but it was very helpful and eye opening.  I gained a lot of clarity.

In light,

Atheria

The Middle Way is THE way…

ImageAs of yesterday, I decided to commit myself to Buddhism.  I am tired of allowing external events and people affect my state of mind and happiness.  I am tired of suffering and am determined to find an answer.  I am determined to find peace.  I have allowed circumstances to decide whether I am happy or sad.  I have had many challenges in my life, both physical and emotional, but I am determined not to allow them to decide who I will be.  I will overcome them.  I will transform physical and emotional pain into compassion and love.  I know this will not be easy.  This may be the biggest thing I’ve ever undertaken.  But, something or someone is urging me at this time.  A couple of days before yesterday’s decision, I got this strong urge to totally redo my home’s decor…paint my walls white and switch over to a black and red theme for furnishings…an Asian look.  Now, I’m too lazy to actually DO that, but I want to! 🙂 (I should mention just how much I abhor painting.)  I didn’t think anything of it at the time, but now I’m highly suspecting my Asian spirit guide, Latho, has moved more closely into my vibration.  I think he’s influencing me.  This would not be the first time this type of thing has happened.  Many years ago I unexpectedly became obsessed with cigars and blonde hair.  I craved a cigar so bad, nonsmoker me went out and bought some and started puffing away in my backyard.  I also went and bleached my hair really blonde (damaging it).  When I went to the Spiritualist Chapel of the Flowers in Van Nuys, CA a week or two later, the medium who was giving spirit messages took one look at me and said, “You have George Burns and Jean Harlow with you in spirit and George is waving a cigar at you!  They have been drawn to you because of your association with the Entertainment Industry.”  That made me laugh out loud.

I had a “dream” years ago that wasn’t.  It was clearly a past life recall.  I was outside myself and observing.  I was a boy who was sitting in a cave with my older male teacher.  I had this huge book in my lap that I was studying from in Tibetan.  As the I that I know as “I” watched this scene, I thought to myself, “How am I understanding Tibetan?!”  Later, another psychic told me that I’ve had at least two past lives in Tibet.  And when I was talking to this man years ago who imported Tibetan art, I burst into inexplicable tears when he mentioned Ganesh Himal.  I had never heard of that mountainous area between Nepal and Tibet until he said the name.  I went home and Googled pictures and information about that region of the world and started crying again.  This wave of emotion just hit me, like I’d had happen when I first saw Taos, New Mexico in person.  For years, I’ve had this thing happen where if I’m talking to someone about something spiritually heavy duty and say something important or dumb, I feel like I get hit in the back right side of my head with a book.  There is a clear WHACK to my head!  I cracked up during a 2002 session with the amazing Dr. Peebles (channeled by Athena Demetrios in California) when he introduced me to Latho and said, “He wants me to tell you that he’s getting tired of having to whack you in the head with a book!” 🙂 I’m assuming that is the same book I saw myself studying from in a cave centuries ago.

Another dream, that wasn’t, involved me leaving my body and “flying” to some church type place in Europe somewhere.  The wonderful Dalai Lama was there giving a talk.  The church was packed full of people.  I stayed in the back to listen.  Then you could get into line to go up and meet the Dalai Lama and get a blessing from him.  I waited patiently.  When I got up to him something happened that I’ll never forget.  And it happened all at once.  Simultaneously, he looked at me and saw my soul.  I knew he saw my soul.  Then something was plunked into my forehead/3rd eye, and I “knew” I was chosen.  Then, before I could do anything, WHOOSH I was back in my body and abruptly woke up.  That experience has been haunting me for years!  Chosen for what?!  And this is not my glorified ego just trying to feel important.  I have this strong feeling I’m supposed to be doing something…I just don’t know what it is.  Maybe my new call to start meditating and studying Buddhism will lead me in some direction.

The next question is, “Which form of Buddhism should I follow?”  I did get a sign yesterday that I’m probably supposed to follow the Tibetan path, but I have to admit I love the simple beauty of Zen and am a huge fan of Thich Nhat Hanh.  One friend feels I should just follow my own inner urges and take from the various Buddhist paths to create my own way.  I’ll probably do a combo of Zen and Tibetan.  Thankfully, we have some great places here in Albuquerque to pursue Buddhist learning.

I’m looking forward to where this journey will lead me.  I’m looking forward to not swinging to extremes and finding The Middle Way.  May you also find the path that calls to your soul.

Blessings,

Carrie (a.k.a. Atheria)

Tibetan Prayer Box & Eclipse

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On our way back to Albuquerque from Santa Fe this afternoon, we stopped in Jackalope…a store I looooove.  We had stopped in to see if they had any Guadalupe statues for my visiting mother, but I got distracted by a little Tibetan booth full of wonderful things from Nepal and Tibet.  There were a lot of things I would have liked to purchase, but this Tibetan Prayer Box called to me big time.  And, for only $5 how could I resist?!  I just wrote some prayers out on a little piece of paper and put it inside the box.  It’s a little heavy to wear as a pendant, but I’m wearing it anyway.  It feels powerful to me.

The eclipse this evening was wonderful.  I am looking forward to GOOD changes triggered by this important alignment of the sun, moon, and Pleiades with the center of the galaxy.

Peace,

Atheria