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Past Life Regression on 3-11-2018

I had a long and really interesting past life regression done via Zoom with wonderfully supportive Ron Amit of Transformotion.org last Sunday.  Ron lives in southern Oregon and I’m in northern New Mexico, but thanks to technology, he can do hypnotic regressions for people located anywhere.  I mention this not only because he’s great at what he does, but because I know people in small towns may not have a qualified hypnotherapist where they live.

Initially, the purpose of this session was to try to help me be able to trance channel more smoothly.  Ron interviewed me for a long time before the hypnosis session to find out what things we needed to touch upon.  That part isn’t in the 2 hours and 54 minute long video.  We decided not only to work on trying to get my channeling to be smoother, but also work on my 22+ years long CONSTANT headache and neck pain from neck damage as I already knew I’d been killed by my neck in numerous lives and there was trauma carryover.  We ended up finding out helpful information about a lot of stuff I deal with.  Ron regressed me not only to some past lives (a Native American in the Southwest killed during a battle by a spear or arrow to the neck, a pirate in the Caribbean who starved to death in prison, a young Buddhist monk in Nepal/Tibet, and Sarah Good during the Salem Witch Trials) but we also did a lot in the life-between-lives state with my Council of 7.  Halcyon is my main spirit guide and kind of head of the Council, and then there are 6 other guides.  A new one I “met” during the session is named Tomas.

Now, what was frustrating is that my Council of 7 wasn’t as forthcoming about some important information as I’d hoped.  I seemed to be a bit blocked.  I’m guessing that the reason for that is that if we are still in the learning process regarding major life lessons that are charted for us, we are not allowed to know what is in the Akashic Records regarding the issues.  It’s kind of like “cheating” to see things we’re currently in the midst of experiencing/learning…or in the future planned for us.  We can see stuff that has long since happened already.

Anyway, if you have HOURS to kill, here is my session.  I hesitated to blog this as it’s very personal, but I think it’ll help some people who’ve never had a hypnotic regression session see what it’s like.  I find past life (and life-between-life) therapy to be very beneficial and fascinating.  A simple example is that I used to have this phobia about being killed by my neck while in bed and I couldn’t say or hear the words, “I love you.”  I would literally physically cringe.  I had a life hundreds of years ago where my husband strangled me in bed during a jealous rage (I was pregnant and he mistakenly thought I’d cheated on him and that the baby was another man’s.) while saying…over and over…”I love you.”  I was able to release all of that after seeing and healing that life.

I realized from this that I have a long history of doing what was expected of me…of putting the feeling of responsibility above my true desires, which is honorable, but not good for me in the long run.

In light,

Atheria

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Past lives, current pain, and forgiveness

There is a great weekly meeting here in Albuquerque called “Spirit Presents ABQ” where there is either a speaker/presenter each week, or an open forum where channels, psychics, etc. can practice their gifts in a supportive environment.  (Email Barbara at spiritpresentsabq@gmail.com if you want to be added to her weekly emailed newsletter.)  Due to my schedule, I don’t go very often, but felt a strong pull to go to tonight’s practice session.  Earlier in the day I felt that I wouldn’t do any channeling, but may just give some mini psychic readings.  I was wrong.

There were 6 of us who showed up tonight, with me being the last arrival.  I sat in between a guy and gal and really didn’t expect to do much because my 20+ year long constant head and neck pain has been really, really bad lately and exhausting (don’t know why I got so much worse last July, but I did).  Barbara led an  opening meditation and both she and another channel gave channeled messages.  When she asked if anyone else needed to channel, I didn’t say anything because I wasn’t feeling it.  But then the empath to my right felt spirit with me and spoke up and said that I had major energies wanting to come through, which triggered me to go into trance pretty quickly.  (Later on, the man to my left said that the moment I walked into the room and sat down, he felt MAJOR energy with me.)  Because Barbara, when she first greeted me tonight, asked if I could ask my guides to be more gentle with me during channeling than they normally are, my session tonight was “better” than normal and a bit more gentle.  (You can see some old videos of me on my Atheria PsychicMedium YouTube channel in trance and it can be pretty scary to watch as I look like I’ve got cerebral palsy or that I’m having a stroke or something.)  That being said, the first channeling I did was very painful due to the tension in my body and the movement/positions my head and neck were put into (have a neck injury) and I couldn’t do on too long due to the extra pain.  I do wish I’d been tape recorded though, as some important political stuff was said by a group that referred to themselves as “The Golden Dawn but not The Golden Dawn known for magick”.  This group said they were connected to Sirius.

Because I was wiped out afterward, and complaining about how bad my head and neck hurt, the kind man to my left asked if he could do some energy work on me and, of course, I said yes.  He took my left hand and I could feel some gentle flowing/shifting…it’s hard to explain.  After a few minutes he said that a LONG time ago, pre Middle Ages, I had been beheaded and the chopping off of my head didn’t go smoothly…so it was a horrible execution gone wrong.  (I have been killed by my neck  in numerous past lives, but this one I wasn’t familiar with, although I was beheaded in another life too.)  He said that I needed to forgive the people who killed me in that life and my other lives.  (My hanging on July 19, 1692 during the Salem Witch Trials is another biggie.)  It was also mentioned that I needed to forgive myself because there were things I did wrong too.  He said that I had been killed because of my beliefs, which confirmed what a fellow channel friend in Los Angeles said to me years ago, “You’ve been killed many times because you had beliefs that were ahead of your time and not the norm.  But, this is finally the life where you can speak your truth and not be punished/killed.”  I can’t remember now exactly what he said, but when he mentioned something about there being a bridge between the past life he saw and now, I was hit with emotion and started to cry.  The word BRIDGE is major for me.  Many years ago at the start of my journey, I had a “dream” with James Van Praagh in it where he walked up to me and said, “You are a bridge for spirit.”  That’s why my old email address was spiritbridge@yahoo.com (deleted now) and that’s why this blog’s address is what it is.

In honesty, I said that I carry A LOT of anger with me regarding being hung during the Salem Witch Trials, for example, so it would not surprise me if I’m also carrying anger from other brutal deaths in my past…that are “bridged” to my current neck and head pain.  I was told I’ve really got to work on forgiving all involved, and myself.  Then the people in the circle addressed the issue of WHY my channeling is always so physically stressful, difficult, and dramatic.  They made me aware that instead of just letting the energies I’m channeling flow through me, I seemed to be pushing them out or something.  They pointed out that perhaps I felt FEAR of being persecuted for my channeling and was kind of blocking the energies instead of TRUSTING and LETTING GO OF CONTROL to allow a smoother flow.  I will admit that (1) I am a control freak, so totally letting go is an issue and (2) I have major trust issues in general, and do question what comes through and debate with “them” in my head before any words come out.  I carry on full fledged arguments behind the scenes in my head.  I’m so afraid of not being believed or that my unseen friends will be wrong, I totally jam up the energy…which causes the contorting, gasping, locked up muscles, etc.  After coaching me a bit on how to just ALLOW…I tried to channel again to see if I could get it to be easier/smoother.  Sure enough, it was easier.  It wasn’t perfect and Barbara had to remind me to breathe when she could see that I was starting to hold back/control, but it was definitely better than my usual sessions.

Doing this work, it’s so hard to trust what is happening!  You keep asking yourself, “Is this just me making up stuff?”  But, during my second try, my unseen friends (a different group from the Pleiades that knew the first group) gave 100% accurate spirit messages to 3 people in the room!  Add to that, the wonderful note I got today on Instagram about a prediction I made a year ago or so that just came true…and…my confidence is building!  I question all the time, “Can I really do this?”  So, it’s nice to get confirmation that I’m not talking out my butt.  Ha!

The interesting thing is that afterward, my 20+ year long migraine shifted.  My “normal” pain is a constant really bad pressure sensation deep inside my brain pushing out in all directions, with it being worse in my occipital region.  Add to that the burning at the base of my skull and in certain parts of my neck and the occasional stabbing in my neck/traps, and things are just lovely…not.  Anyway, my head still felt pressure pain, but it was a little lower and there was a throbbing more concentrated pain on the left side of my head.  Any change in the type of head pain is a good sign in my book, after 20 years.  I think I’m clearly onto something.  I need to buckle down and work on forgiving those who killed me, forgive myself, and stop fearing my gift and letting it flow.  I must continue to speak my truth and another guy tonight suggested pulling the blue flame into my throat chakra.  When I’m starting to channel, I often start coughing and that is not a coincidence.

It’s late and I think I’m forgetting other important stuff that happened tonight.  But, I left with some important things to think about and work on.  I’m so glad I went to the practice session!  Of course, now I’m questioning if I should be leaving Albuquerque next month as planned.  But, as a couple of them said, if Colorado doesn’t work out, I can always come back.  True!  I have this weird feeling that this job in my beloved Taos that I’ve written off as not going to come through, will come through just as I’m about to move do the Denver/Boulder area.  Now that could just be me worrying though, and not a message.  LOL!  I have a strong connection to the Rocky Mountains from Colorado down into New Mexico and said under hypnosis last August that eventually I wouldn’t live in just one place, that I’d travel a lot for my spiritual work…especially between Colorado and New Mexico.  My gut does feel that is going to happen.  I would like to mention that when John Denver wrote “Rocky Mountain High”…he was actually in mountains near Taos, New Mexico, not Colorado! 🙂 My magical Taos!

The moral of this long post is:  Do not hold onto anger as it causes many health problems.  Speak your truth.  Trust in your higher self and guides.  And being a control freak just causes stress.

In light,

Atheria

P.S.  Oh, when I got into my car to head home after the meeting tonight, I looked at my car’s odometer to see a 444!  Angel sign! 🙂

 

Middle of the night channeled session…yawn…

Yes, the fact you have not been able to sleep is our doing. We have been knocking at the door for days, only to be shushed off by you. And no, it’s not a full moon tonight, it’s us. (Insert grin here.) Your live full trance channeling is all well and good, but we like this one-on-one relay channeling time too…and miss it. It’s been too long.

Ah, “The Matrix”. That comment on Facebook also came from us since we’d like to speak about it at this time. Should you take the red pill or the blue pill? What would you say if we told you that neither pill really mattered? What would you say if we told you what you THINK is your real life right now, wasn’t your real life at all? And what is real? We would like to verify that all is happening at once as some have theorized. Past lives and future lives are all happening now. You actually CAN affect past lives by things that you do now…choices that you make. All is interwoven and complex. There is a tunnel of sorts, often described as the tunnel you go zooming through as you leave your physical body at the time of “death”…funny word…death…for it’s actually just a continuation on a different dimension. Death sounds much too concrete, when it’s anything but. But, we digress. There are different off-shoots of the tunnel that lead to different dimensions, and different lives. Déjà vu isn’t just a remembered glimpse of a moment of your current (in your limited view of reality) life’s chart, but also a moment where the life that you think of as your current life intersects with another reality. They are moments where two of you intersect…kind of like passing each other at an airport.

This is also where the whole soulmate thing can get confusing. It occasionally happens that two people fall deeply in love and feel that they’ve met their soulmate, when in actuality, they have met aspects of themselves. How is THAT for a shocker? But, we are here to wake you up…not just keep you awake at night. It is true that not all of your soul incarnates into one body at a time. It is true that a portion of your soul always stays on the Other Side to kind of “run things” and that 25% of you could be in one physical body while another 50% of you is in another. There could be a few yous. Now, this soulmate being you event is not a common one, as for most of the time the soulmate is someone from your soul family and that’s it, but it DOES happen. We just wanted to make you aware of that.

For now, this is what we want to say. We’ll let you go back to bed. You’ll be able to sleep now. We do ask that if you feel us knocking on your head, to please answer the door. We are not your typical unwanted solicitors.  Good night, our friend, and sleep well. And yes, it was us who turned on the power strip to your laptop last night. We were hoping you’d get the hint. (Insert grin again.)

No accidental meetings…an old friend from the Salem Witch Trials has shown up.

Starting January 20th, I was under immense stress (that ruined my health) due to my employer telling me I couldn’t keep the job they gave me on December 13th and that I had 30 days to find another job within the company.  My old department would have taken me back as I left on good terms, but they had already back-filled my position.  There were not many openings, and with the time crunch, I did not do well stress-wise.  During all of this, my friends kept saying, “Everything happens for a reason.  You have to trust that.”  Now I do believe that, in general, but when you are seeing NO possible good from the situation (I knew that whatever job I found would most likely pay less than what this job would have paid had it worked out) and are ending up in ERs with anxiety attacks, it’s hard to just trust that there is a plan and things will work out.  Thankfully, with 2 days left in my 30 day deadline, I got a job offer…and transferred before the end of that week, starting late in the day on February 20th.  I was a little concerned because my start date was in the middle of a Mercury Retrograde, but, tried to tune that fact out.

Immediately, there were 2 good things about the new position…MUCH easier parking (parking is a major issue) and I could have my cell phone at work for the first time in over 4 years!  But, those are not really important reasons for me ending up with this job.  I share an office with another assistant, and we hit it off immediately.  I assumed, though, that it was just that we got along and was glad for that fact.  I’d guess she is about my age, probably a few years younger.  Then I started noticing just HOW MUCH we had in common and it started to get weird.  We’re both drawn to Asian decorations.  We both eat small meals all the time (she eats even more often than I do) and are into healthier foods.  We both love to travel (although I’ve not traveled lately…which I need to do again) and actually took the same cruise in 2011!  The only difference was that I went in August and she went in December.  I mean, literally, the same ship and route.  I was in the entertainment industry in Los Angeles, and she has always wanted to be in the movie biz.  I can’t recall why now, but for some reason I took a risk and said something about past-lives on Thursday and she got very interested.  Turns out she is very into all things metaphysical like me.  We both loved “In Search Of” years ago.  We both, as kids, were obsessed with learning about ghosts, etc.  Now, as a kid I held seances, which she didn’t do out of fear…but still, she was intrigued.  While mentioning some past-life stuff, I brought up my life and death during the Salem Witch Trials in 1692 (was hung on July 19, 1692) and how my current neck problem is tied to a few past-lives where I’ve been killed by my neck.  She then got excited and said that she’s always been drawn to information about the Witch Trials an actually made the pilgrimage to Salem to visit the sites where the murders happened.  That is something I think I need to do.  She warned me that where they have the markers isn’t the real location where the trials and executions happened, though, as locals told her.  As we eagerly went back and forth talking about the Witch Trials, I kept tingling noticeably…like my unseen friends were smacking me to pay attention.  There have been a few women in my life, where when I met them, there was this “recognition” that I knew them in Salem.  I’m convinced we were friends back in 1692.  When I look at her, I can literally see it now.  I’m not going to tell her THAT, but at least I know now that there IS a reason for this new job.  I was meant to meet her.  I do think there will be other things that show up to confirm there is a plan for our lives, and that nothing is random.  I look forward to finding out what will be revealed.

Fatefully,

Carrie

My 1st hypnotherapy session to deal with my panic/anxiety disorder…

I had my 1st session with Gloria today to hopefully cure my increasingly bad panic attacks. Before she even put me under, she interviewed me for quite a while about the long questionnaire I had filled out. She was torn because although some of my answers pointed to possible extraterrestrial abduction experiences, some of my answers didn’t. I went into this with an open mind as I’m not sure what is causing them. It could be my hypoglycemia. It could be peri-menopause (for which I started on herbs yesterday) related. It could be a past life trauma that is bubbling up to the surface now. It could be anything.

Before Gloria put me under hypnosis, she told me that I would be aware at all times during the session. For the most part, that was true. But, at one point I “left the building” and don’t remember even hearing her voice for a while. It was like I was there and aware and then POOF…gone. I didn’t know I was gone until there was this BRIGHT light shining in my face that felt like it had a consciousness to it. It brought me back into the normal hypnotic awareness level where I could hear Gloria, hear the clock ding-dong on the hour, etc. When I mentioned the bright light, she thought it could be the sun coming through the skylight, but I wasn’t really facing the right direction for that and this light was right in my face and intelligent. That’s the only way I can explain it. It was alive.

This session was to deal specifically with retraining me regarding the panic attacks, so she didn’t specifically try to investigate any possible ET abductions/encounters. She gave me a lot of suggestions that hopefully will kick in the next time I start to freak out.

She then told me to go back to when in my past I felt fear that was associated with my current panic attacks and without hesitation I was standing face to face with an ET! But then my logical mind kicked in and said, “Now you’re just making this up because you know she’s into ETs and UFOs.” So I forced the image to change into a black blanket that I could then dissolve as she instructed me to do with my fears. She then told me to go back further if there was another instance of fear that is affecting me and I went back to my childhood when during a bad fight my parents were having I ran out into the garage to get my bicycle to ride away on. Dad ran after me and locked me in the garage to try to calm me down and talk to me. It didn’t work and eventually he let me run off. Then Gloria told me to go back further if there was anything else that happened where I felt fear and I ended up in my mother’s womb. I don’t know why I felt fear in there, but I did. Maybe something was going on within her or something. (By the way, I didn’t verbalize anything while under hypnosis. I only talked afterward.)

When Gloria suggested I go back further, if there was anything else I needed to see, I saw a quick flash of a past life I know about during the Middle Ages or so where I was a peasant girl who had a love affair with the rich son of a powerful family. But, I only saw that life really quickly before I switched over to a good…at least I’ve always felt it was one of my better lives…life in Versailles, France. I started to watch the life when out from nowehere I’m suddenly in this field on the edge of woods…standing at the back of a good sized crowd of people as they were walking into a UFO that was sitting there! I’m watching humans go into a UFO! I assumed that meant that during the Versailles life I might have been abducted, but I’m not sure the clothing I saw the people wearing was of that era. I think the clothes were more modern, but can’t recall clearly now.

That scene didn’t last too long because (not knowing what I was seeing but witnessing me react physically to seeing it….my body squirmed and I kind of flinched and made noises) Gloria suggested that I see myself in a museum and witness my fear as a piece of art. When she said that, I saw the Mona Lisa. She asked me if the Mona Lisa resembled anything I was afraid of, but nothing came to mind. The Mona Lisa is in the Louvre in Paris, though, which, of course, is near Versailles.

Soon after that she brought me out of hypnosis and then had me tell her what I experienced and saw. I have to admit, I was caught off guard when that ET I was with face to face showed up after she asked me when I first felt fear…and then that UFO being loaded up with people showed up in the middle of a seemingly unrelated Versailles scene. Maybe there IS more going on than me just being a hormonal mess or hypoglycemic. Hoping that all the suggestions she made regarding me releasing the panic issue work, the next time she’d like to take me back to 1998 when I do believe I was taken twice while living in the Hollywood Hills. 1998 was an “interesting” year in many ways. It’s the year Taos called me to it (and I had a life altering spiritual experience nearby in Ojo Caliente) and the year I heard the voice that told me I wasn’t really Carrie Ryan, I was Atheria. It’s also the year I adopted my beloved Karma kitty…but that wasn’t odd. 🙂

As a side note, Gloria told me that I can indeed ask ETs to help heal my 17+ year long neck damage and headache hell. She said that if I keep repeating it to myself that I want their help, if I’m ever taken again, it’ll come to the forefront and they’ll do something about it. She also wants to see the old CT scans and X-rays I have of my neck and head after I told her a neurosurgeon in Santa Monica told me that the base of my skull is slightly malformed and that my cerebellum is huge…way bigger than an average person’s.

Well, until next time….

In light,
Carrie

Your Soul’s Gift

I need to say:  I love “coincidences”!  Because, guess what?  Coincidences AREN’T.

On Friday I was talking with a friend and explaining how I believe (from what I’ve been taught and what feels true) that before we incarnate, we meet with our spirit guides on the Other Side and chart out our next life’s major lessons and goals.  She was not familiar with that concept, and I had to explain how once we incarnate we forget what we agreed to (and I think I was drunk when I agreed to this life and the hell I’ve gone through) and although we have free will and can kind of veer off path occasionally, we really are stuck with the major life lessons we set up for ourselves to deal with.  So, even if you veer off path, those lessons will find some way to work themselves back into your experience.

On Sunday I got the urge to go to the final day of “A Gathering of Healers” being held at Heavenly Lodge in Tijeras, NM.  I hadn’t yet been through the Tijeras area and used it as an excuse to take a little road trip out into nature.  Firstly, Tijeras is very pretty.  I loved the area.  Secondly, Heavenly Lodge had wonderful energy and was soooooo peaceful.  The owner, Michelle, showed me around and was very hospitable.  Thirdly, while talking with the woman leading the healing event, Shirley, I mentioned that I’ve always been fascinated by life-between-life hypnotic regression and exploration and I think I mentioned something about charting incarnations.  She then said, “I have a book out in my car I’d like to give you.”  Well, the book was “Your Soul’s Gift” by Robert Schwartz, published this year.  And, guess what?  It’s about how we as souls meet with our teachers and guides before we incarnate into our next life and plan out the major goals and life lessons we need to experience to continue our growth as souls!  Ding!  Ding!  Ding!  Someone obviously wants me to learn more about this.  I started reading the 500+ page book last evening and it’s fascinating!  I’m a slow reader so I’m only up to page 114 or so (but I did have to work today) but I can’t stand to put it down.  It’s not often that a book truly engulfs me.  I would highly suggest this book to anyone who wants to understand how our growth through various lives works.  I’ve also learned that karma is much more complicated than I thought.  It’s so involved, I can’t even explain it here.  You’ll have to read the book. 🙂 And no, I’m not getting a commission.

I have always believed that the bad things that happen in our lives have a spiritual purpose.  Now, by reading some of the true stories in this book, I’m SURE there is a reason for everything.  And those bad situations that keep repeating over and over….ummmmm….HELLO!!  Pay attention!  There is something you need to learn in order to stop it from happening again.  Look for the deeper lesson in everything.  I have known for quite some time that as horrendous as my 16.5+ years of constant head pain due to a stubborn neck injury has been, if I had not been injured on 10/1/1995 I never would have met Eric Pearl (well….spirit probably would have found some way for us to connect) and Eric changed my life forever and sent me on a spiritual path I might not have walked down had I not been desperately looking for help with my health.  Of course, the injury can leave now!  I’m on the path already.  It’s time for me to heal!  But wait, maybe there is still more to learn from my neck hell…..hmmmmm……

In Light,

Atheria