As some people know, although Bodhi has come to me in “dreams” 2-3 times since his passing, I’ve been sad that Karma hasn’t been able to come through to me astrally. Well, all that changed in the wee hours of this morning…7 months and almost 12 days since she crossed over the Rainbow Bridge. (The photo above was my baby girl on Oct. 12, 2012 after she had already gotten too thin.)
I don’t remember all of the details now, but Karma was at a hospice type place for pets. The last year+ of her life, she went through a lot and got thinner and thinner, acted like she had dementia, and started having seizures. 😦 We never knew what was wrong as she didn’t have diabetes, thyroid issues, or kidney issues…so I think she had cancer, possibly a brain tumor. I drove to the hospice (on a motorcycle for some odd reason…which proved to be inconvenient in terms of getting her and her supplies back home) to pick her up as I wanted her with me. I was able to pet her and tell her I loved her. I will say that she had been very well taken care of at this place, which brings me some peace. I have heard that there is a cocooning procedure for humans on the Other Side who’ve gone through a lot of trauma before death so that their souls can heal and recover, and I felt that this hospice type place for pets was like that. She was still thin, but not AS thin as she was when she crossed over (down to 6 lbs. at that point) and she actually looked better. I then loaded her up in a pet carrier, took a kitty litter pan, and some other blankets and supplies and somehow got all of this on a motorcycle and rode home. I woke up as I was heading back home.
This simple “dream” (I know it wasn’t a simple dream but a visit) makes me feel so much better. Please know that not only will your human loved ones try to come to you in spirit, but also your animal loved ones. Sometimes they need time, so don’t worry if they don’t come to you right after passing. They may be getting cared for on the Other Side and need time to get their strength back before being able to come through. I believe this is especially true with Alzheimer’s, ALS, and cancer.
I had just walked into the bathroom this morning when I saw this BLACK whisker sitting on the floor…quite prominently. I’m so excited! Why am I so excited about a cat’s whisker, you ask? Well, Bleu’s whiskers are 100% white and Chakra’s are 90% white with a few of them having a little black in them. But Karma, who crossed over to the Other Side on August 24th, had black whiskers! Bodhi has let me know very clearly that he is still around in spirit, but Karma hasn’t had the overly dramatic appearances. I just know this was her way of letting me know she’s okay and still around…checking on me, Bleu, and Chakra. This made my day. I’ve added the whisker to her memorial space on my fireplace mantel. I should add that yes, I have vacuumed/cleaned numerous times since her passing and should also mention that the last year of her life, she became obsessed with the bathroom and spent a lot of time in there drinking water from the sink’s faucet, etc. I am finding it really cool that both Bodhi and Karma have given me PHYSICAL signs. I’m still in shock about Bodhi taking a treat I had left for him. I blogged about that previously.
As part of Bodhi’s altar on my fireplace mantle I put two pieces of his favorite Greenies treats. I saw both treats within the past week, along with some of his teeth that had to be pulled in 2010 or 2011 that the vet had given me in a little tube, his ashes, and his picture. I had this odd feeling something was going to happen to the treats and literally checked them about a week ago…and they were there as normal. Tonight, something made me look again, and one of the treats is gone! There is no way that Chakra or Bleu got up there and took it! They would have knocked stuff down. I’m so excited and so happy that Bodhi is here! Now I hope that Karma does something too!
Animals are indeed eternal and love us from the Other Side!
I will admit that I’ve been upset that so far I’ve not gotten any signs from Karma letting me know she’s okay on the Other Side. Bodhi walked into the kitchen 3 days after he died last year and then showed up in the bathroom 2 days after that…and again on my birthday (rubbed against my leg). Well, all that may have changed!
For the past few days, I’ve been hearing noises in my house that sound like they are coming from the bedrooms when I’m in the kitchen or den. Lots of clash-bang stuff like things are falling or being knocked over. Bleu has often been playing in the backyard during this or has been with me. But Chakra was back in one of the bedrooms. I just attributed it to her (although never finding anything knocked over SHOULD have been a clue). Also, 2-3 times she’s come tearing through the house from one of the bedrooms like she’s being chased and is playing or something. I will say that THAT started to make me wonder if something was going on. She’s been hanging out in my bedroom A LOT since Karma passed. Sometimes I’ll go looking for her, and she’ll be sitting or standing in my bedroom with this funny look on her face like I busted her doing something or that I interrupted something. It’s hard to explain the look, but I know my kids. After what happened around 4 a.m. today, I’m convinced she’s been playing with the spirits of Karma and Bodhi, or at least one of them.
I’ve not been sleeping well AT ALL for a long time, and it’s been increasingly worse…where lately the tiny bit I sleep is full of nightmares. Anyway, I barely slept again last night, but around 4 a.m. I was definitely fully awakened by hearing an animal thumping around and frantically clawing a door trying to get out of a closet or cabinet or something. I looked over and Chakra wasn’t next to me like she has been (since Karma died, Chakra has been clingy). I thought that although I could have sworn she’d been in bed with me initially, that maybe I’d imagined it and she’d never been there because I’d accidentally locked her in the closet or something. It wouldn’t be the first time. I went closet to closet and opened up the bathroom cabinets (where Karma used to lock herself in and freak out, see: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7fuQ0UvlIas ) but still no Chakra. When I came back into my bedroom, I noticed her tail sticking out from under the bed. THEN it suddenly dawned on me that I’ve got cat ghosts! Now, because Karma loved to hide in the bathroom cabinets and then not be able to get out and would claw and claw, I’m assuming it’s her. But, it is certainly possible that Bodhi is also around and playing with Chakra since during 1 of the 2 dream visitations I’ve had with him, when he jumped down off my lap and started to walk away, he morphed into Chakra.
Now, the hard part is that both Bodhi and Karma need to move on…but I don’t really want them to go. I miss my babies so much and it is bringing me some comfort knowing they’re around. So, I’m not sure what to do at this point. I’m curious to see if more stuff will happen, or if it’ll slowly stop happening as they move into another level.
I lost my 1st baby…my beloved 15 year old Karma today, and am heartbroken. She was emaciated (although about 6 lbs. instead of the 5 I thought) and was eating less and less, throwing up, and had a bad seizure this morning. I think she had cancer somewhere since she didn’t have diabetes, thyroid issues, or kidney failure but something was causing dramatic weight loss. She cried all the time, although it didn’t seem to be a cry of pain. She didn’t pass away immediately like Bodhi did, and when she finally took her last breath, I felt her spirit vwoosh through me dramatically. When I looked in her eyes, she was gone. I just pray I did the right thing. It’s so hard. With her passing, a large chunk of my life’s story is over. She, Bodhi, and I went through a lot together. And Karma was especially sensitive to me. If I was depressed or sick, she sensed it and would cling to me. She loved to touch me and would often reach over just to touch me with her paw. Chakra went and immediately started sniffing the empty cat carrier. I hope she is going to be okay. She still misses Bodhi and was very close to Karma. My cats are my children. My cats are my love. I can’t stop crying.
This picture of her was taken when she was healthy on 5/14/11. I took some movies and pictures of her today, but I’d rather remember her looking healthy.
I just had to put my beloved boy, Bodhi, to sleep. He had acute kidney failure and although I could have kept him alive longer through dramatic means, I had to accept that it would be more for me than for him. He was suffering. I just pray I did the right thing. My heart aches. I’m inconsolable. I know I’ll see him again someday, but I miss him. While at the vet’s trying to decide what to do and realizing I probably had to euthanize him, I looked up and saw THREE sets of 444’s on the computer screen. Angels were telling me they were in the room. On the drive home, the sun shone through the clouds right over my neighborhood. My cell picture attached doesn’t show it as clearly as you could see the sun’s rays though. As I pulled into the driveway, Karma was sitting in the window waiting. Almost immediately she smelled the empty cat carrier and sat next to it like she was guarding….for a few minutes. And Chakra kept looking up at the ceiling like she saw something in the den. I hope Bodhi visits me in spirit to let me know he’s okay. His ashes will be sprinkled with other cats and dogs on the top of the Sandia Mountains.
The pain is so bad. Bodhi was only 13. I wanted him to live forever…..I can still see his anxious face waiting for me in the window as I came home.
I’m not SURE but as I was sending out this email telling my friends about Bodhi, I could have sworn I heard the quick expressing of air through a clogged nose sound that Bodhi had been doing the past 2 weeks right behind me. I hope it was him. I pray he visits me in spirit. My friend just told me that anyone who passes on holy days (Yom Kippur started at sundown) is a special and extra good soul. That brought me some peace.