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Past Life Regression on 3-11-2018

I had a long and really interesting past life regression done via Zoom with wonderfully supportive Ron Amit of Transformotion.org last Sunday.  Ron lives in southern Oregon and I’m in northern New Mexico, but thanks to technology, he can do hypnotic regressions for people located anywhere.  I mention this not only because he’s great at what he does, but because I know people in small towns may not have a qualified hypnotherapist where they live.

Initially, the purpose of this session was to try to help me be able to trance channel more smoothly.  Ron interviewed me for a long time before the hypnosis session to find out what things we needed to touch upon.  That part isn’t in the 2 hours and 54 minute long video.  We decided not only to work on trying to get my channeling to be smoother, but also work on my 22+ years long CONSTANT headache and neck pain from neck damage as I already knew I’d been killed by my neck in numerous lives and there was trauma carryover.  We ended up finding out helpful information about a lot of stuff I deal with.  Ron regressed me not only to some past lives (a Native American in the Southwest killed during a battle by a spear or arrow to the neck, a pirate in the Caribbean who starved to death in prison, a young Buddhist monk in Nepal/Tibet, and Sarah Good during the Salem Witch Trials) but we also did a lot in the life-between-lives state with my Council of 7.  Halcyon is my main spirit guide and kind of head of the Council, and then there are 6 other guides.  A new one I “met” during the session is named Tomas.

Now, what was frustrating is that my Council of 7 wasn’t as forthcoming about some important information as I’d hoped.  I seemed to be a bit blocked.  I’m guessing that the reason for that is that if we are still in the learning process regarding major life lessons that are charted for us, we are not allowed to know what is in the Akashic Records regarding the issues.  It’s kind of like “cheating” to see things we’re currently in the midst of experiencing/learning…or in the future planned for us.  We can see stuff that has long since happened already.

Anyway, if you have HOURS to kill, here is my session.  I hesitated to blog this as it’s very personal, but I think it’ll help some people who’ve never had a hypnotic regression session see what it’s like.  I find past life (and life-between-life) therapy to be very beneficial and fascinating.  A simple example is that I used to have this phobia about being killed by my neck while in bed and I couldn’t say or hear the words, “I love you.”  I would literally physically cringe.  I had a life hundreds of years ago where my husband strangled me in bed during a jealous rage (I was pregnant and he mistakenly thought I’d cheated on him and that the baby was another man’s.) while saying…over and over…”I love you.”  I was able to release all of that after seeing and healing that life.

I realized from this that I have a long history of doing what was expected of me…of putting the feeling of responsibility above my true desires, which is honorable, but not good for me in the long run.

In light,


Life Between Lives Hypnotic Regression Session on Aug. 28, 2015

I have been wanting a life-between-lives hypnosis regression session for years, so when my fellow psychic medium friend, Renee Buck (www.whispersfromthelight.com) stayed with me for 2 days while driving across country and offered a session, I said yes.  I am dealing with an almost 20 years long constant pain issue (along with other things) that has gotten much worse since the beginning of July, so I was hoping for some insight about my head/neck hell.  I already knew that I’ve been killed by my neck numerous times, including on July 19, 1692 in Salem during the Witch Trials.

The session was fascinating, emotionally hard at times as realizations came flooding through, physically hard (major aching in my arms and legs), and jaw dropping with WOW moments.  Renee took me back to my childhood, birth experience, and while I was in the womb.  A neck related thing showed up when I was around 4.  I was with my mom (assuming dad and sister too, but don’t know) at a petting zoo type place (may have been Lollipop Farm in the Rochester, NY area) when somehow I fell or got pushed down by a little herd of goats or sheep or something.  I can remember the panic and all I could see was stomachs and legs of the animals as they walked over me.  Mom reached down in and yanked me out to safety.  But, I sustained some damage to my neck at C5-C6.  I’m getting new x-rays and a new MRI tomorrow, but do know that there is a herniated disc at C5-C6 that showed up years ago, and my neck suddenly bends in the wrong direction at that point.

In the womb things were okay except that I could feel my mother’s anxiety.  I knew she wanted me, but was very anxious and nervous about becoming a mother.  Before birth, I was really upset.  I felt abandoned by my guides and felt that they had coerced me into taking on way too may difficulties and challenges in this life.  I did not want to be born.  I wanted desperately to back out of the agreement.  That’s probably why mom was in labor for so many hours.  I was refusing to come out.  She was heavily drugged during it, so when I did finally pop out, I don’t remember interacting with her right away.  The lights were so bright!  The sudden light in my face and loud noises bothered me.  I recalled one male doctor and 3 nurses.

Renee then took me back further and there was this moment when I saw this garden that I described as an English type garden with lots of manicured bushes and such, but not as many flowers, but when Renee said, “Or like France” I suddenly knew I was seeing Versailles’ gardens!  I have LONG felt I lived at the Palace of Versailles long ago due to a life I glimpsed in 1988.  At one point during the session as Renee was leading me to deeper levels, I walked down this glass staircase that was pretty…with wooden railings.

Renee then suggested I go to a past life where I also had psychic gifts, and used them in a beneficial way.  I was suddenly seeing what looked like a monastery in Tibet, but felt Nepal.  I may have been near the border as I have a strong connection to the Ganesh Himal region.  I saw my feet and I was wearing sandals made of yak skin/leather with horse hair twine stuff tying them together.  I was dressed in tan/orange robes.  I was a 14 year old Buddhist monk.  I was on my way to the market to pick up some supplies for the monastery as they requested the younger monks do chores like that.  But, I liked going to the market because there was a girl I loved from afar who worked there.  She had long dark hair.  I pined for her, but knew that we could never be a couple.  I had been chosen to be a monk because of “seer” qualities I had shown when very young.  I had dreams that came true, etc.  I had been considered to be gifted and special.  I had been “chosen” and I respected the responsibility bestowed upon me.  I took it very seriously and put duty and honor before personal desire and knew I was giving up ever having a normal life.  But, I loved her…and it made my heart ache.  I went through a special “ordination” ceremony when I was 16 and then we jumped forward to when I was about 65.  I had become a very respected teacher and taught other young monks about how to attain connection to the divine.  I taught with compassion and not a heavy hand.  There was always a slight glimmer of sadness about the girl, but I accepted the sacrifices I made as I accomplished a lot that was important.  She did end up getting married to someone else and had a nice life.  I died at age 72 in year 1147 after an illness.  On my deathbed I was surrounded by chanting monks and I meditated on the bardo.  There were lit candles around the room.

After I died, I went out into the universe and saw billions of stars.  Two guides then greeted me and led me, one on each side, by my shoulders as we flew to the Other Side.  There was an “Emerald City’ type crystal building that emitted green light and as we floated along the path leading to the huge double doors, I looked down and realized that the path was made of water!  We were “walking on water”!  I was led into this large, all white room with a crescent shaped desk.  I stood facing the table (the arc of the crescent faced me) as the 2 spirit guides stayed with me but stepped slightly behind me.  At the table were 7 beings.  The one in the middle was quite a bit bigger than the 6 others, and felt male.  I say “felt male” because the inner aura was pink.  He had long-ish blonde hair and blue eyes.  They all wore white judge type robes.  His name was Halcyon.  I found out that I have carried something over from that Buddhist life that I shouldn’t have.  I have thought that I needed to go through life alone in order to be successful with my spiritual work.  I subconsciously have felt that a partner would be a distraction and hold me back.  I have felt I’ve needed to sacrifice like the Buddhist monk did…which is incorrect.

It also came up that I knew Renee from another one (at least I think it was a separate life) of my Buddhist past lives.  I knew of 2 before yesterday.  She had been my teacher in one.

Also at the table was Lisette, my fairy guide (her purpose is to lighten me up and make me laugh), and Latho, who is more stern and hits me in the back/right part of my head when I’m being stupid about something.  The soul I know as my Grandpa Slovik was there (in the room, not at the table), Uncle Chuckie, an ex boss named Don Kline, and 2 Spiritualist reverends from my past, Frances Scher and Eveliani (Evelyn) Chaneske (Gilbert).

It came out that my serious health challenges for years DO have a purpose.  Their purpose is to teach me compassion for others so that when I teach, I don’t teach too sternly.  It was made clear that my true work is as a teacher.  I was told that the things I’m doing now to try to help my health are the right things to do.  Whether I’ll ever be totally out of pain was kind of vague, but I will be getting help…and at least will improve.

I was told that it’s true I’m very connected to the entire Rocky Mountains region…Colorado and New Mexico.  I will finally be freed up to leave Albuquerque, energetically, after I get the help I need for my head and neck issue.  I was told that my presentation at the November NM UFO/Paranormal Forum will lead to my real work taking off.  I will be traveling around to speak and teach in upcoming years and will get invitations to appear at various events around the country.  Supposedly, I’ve already been teaching at all of the office jobs I’ve ever had as you can teach without realizing it.

Just very briefly, my Salem Witch Trials life did come up and it seems I was Sarah Good.  Reading about her life is upsetting.  I did NOT kill animals as they said.  Under hypnosis in 2002 I remember doing herbal healing work on animals in the woods.

Sarah Good Grave Marker

Sarah Good Grave Marker


Supposedly, I also knew Renee in that life.  She was a sympathizer in the “audience” and was young.  I got the name Gretchen Winthrop for her.  I do know that being hung in that life is affecting my neck now.  I’ve tried to release it, but it’s been hard.  I was told I need to let go of the anger and hatred toward those who killed me in order to let go of the energetic neck trauma.  THAT will be a challenge.

Supposedly I have indeed 2 past lives in New Mexico.  One as a Colorado Ute where I came down into the Taos area to trade, and one as a Mescalero Apache.  I was told that I was brought to New Mexico to heal.

I am probably forgetting stuff that came up yesterday, but it was very helpful and eye opening.  I gained a lot of clarity.

In light,


My 1st hypnotherapy session to deal with my panic/anxiety disorder…

I had my 1st session with Gloria today to hopefully cure my increasingly bad panic attacks. Before she even put me under, she interviewed me for quite a while about the long questionnaire I had filled out. She was torn because although some of my answers pointed to possible extraterrestrial abduction experiences, some of my answers didn’t. I went into this with an open mind as I’m not sure what is causing them. It could be my hypoglycemia. It could be peri-menopause (for which I started on herbs yesterday) related. It could be a past life trauma that is bubbling up to the surface now. It could be anything.

Before Gloria put me under hypnosis, she told me that I would be aware at all times during the session. For the most part, that was true. But, at one point I “left the building” and don’t remember even hearing her voice for a while. It was like I was there and aware and then POOF…gone. I didn’t know I was gone until there was this BRIGHT light shining in my face that felt like it had a consciousness to it. It brought me back into the normal hypnotic awareness level where I could hear Gloria, hear the clock ding-dong on the hour, etc. When I mentioned the bright light, she thought it could be the sun coming through the skylight, but I wasn’t really facing the right direction for that and this light was right in my face and intelligent. That’s the only way I can explain it. It was alive.

This session was to deal specifically with retraining me regarding the panic attacks, so she didn’t specifically try to investigate any possible ET abductions/encounters. She gave me a lot of suggestions that hopefully will kick in the next time I start to freak out.

She then told me to go back to when in my past I felt fear that was associated with my current panic attacks and without hesitation I was standing face to face with an ET! But then my logical mind kicked in and said, “Now you’re just making this up because you know she’s into ETs and UFOs.” So I forced the image to change into a black blanket that I could then dissolve as she instructed me to do with my fears. She then told me to go back further if there was another instance of fear that is affecting me and I went back to my childhood when during a bad fight my parents were having I ran out into the garage to get my bicycle to ride away on. Dad ran after me and locked me in the garage to try to calm me down and talk to me. It didn’t work and eventually he let me run off. Then Gloria told me to go back further if there was anything else that happened where I felt fear and I ended up in my mother’s womb. I don’t know why I felt fear in there, but I did. Maybe something was going on within her or something. (By the way, I didn’t verbalize anything while under hypnosis. I only talked afterward.)

When Gloria suggested I go back further, if there was anything else I needed to see, I saw a quick flash of a past life I know about during the Middle Ages or so where I was a peasant girl who had a love affair with the rich son of a powerful family. But, I only saw that life really quickly before I switched over to a good…at least I’ve always felt it was one of my better lives…life in Versailles, France. I started to watch the life when out from nowehere I’m suddenly in this field on the edge of woods…standing at the back of a good sized crowd of people as they were walking into a UFO that was sitting there! I’m watching humans go into a UFO! I assumed that meant that during the Versailles life I might have been abducted, but I’m not sure the clothing I saw the people wearing was of that era. I think the clothes were more modern, but can’t recall clearly now.

That scene didn’t last too long because (not knowing what I was seeing but witnessing me react physically to seeing it….my body squirmed and I kind of flinched and made noises) Gloria suggested that I see myself in a museum and witness my fear as a piece of art. When she said that, I saw the Mona Lisa. She asked me if the Mona Lisa resembled anything I was afraid of, but nothing came to mind. The Mona Lisa is in the Louvre in Paris, though, which, of course, is near Versailles.

Soon after that she brought me out of hypnosis and then had me tell her what I experienced and saw. I have to admit, I was caught off guard when that ET I was with face to face showed up after she asked me when I first felt fear…and then that UFO being loaded up with people showed up in the middle of a seemingly unrelated Versailles scene. Maybe there IS more going on than me just being a hormonal mess or hypoglycemic. Hoping that all the suggestions she made regarding me releasing the panic issue work, the next time she’d like to take me back to 1998 when I do believe I was taken twice while living in the Hollywood Hills. 1998 was an “interesting” year in many ways. It’s the year Taos called me to it (and I had a life altering spiritual experience nearby in Ojo Caliente) and the year I heard the voice that told me I wasn’t really Carrie Ryan, I was Atheria. It’s also the year I adopted my beloved Karma kitty…but that wasn’t odd. 🙂

As a side note, Gloria told me that I can indeed ask ETs to help heal my 17+ year long neck damage and headache hell. She said that if I keep repeating it to myself that I want their help, if I’m ever taken again, it’ll come to the forefront and they’ll do something about it. She also wants to see the old CT scans and X-rays I have of my neck and head after I told her a neurosurgeon in Santa Monica told me that the base of my skull is slightly malformed and that my cerebellum is huge…way bigger than an average person’s.

Well, until next time….

In light,

Panic/anxiety disorder could be associated with ET abductions?

As some know, I’m very hypoglycemic (my other blog is http://hypoglycemicveggie.wordpress.com) and one of the side effects of my endocrine system blowing the day after Thanksgiving 2010 has been a worsening panic/anxiety disorder that is becoming debilitating. Because I’ve had such severe low blood sugar attacks, especially when alone, I now get afraid I’m going to have one and die if I feel too remote (in the middle of nowhere…and a lot of New Mexico is in the middle of nowhere), not near medical care/hospitals, if I feel the right kind of food isn’t easily available, if I feel trapped (even in traffic jams I’ve freaked out in my car), in closed in spaces (claustrophobic now), etc. I’m becoming borderline agoraphobic. Desperate to cure this and get on with my life, I contacted a wonderful hypnotherapist I met at a party a year or so ago. Now the reason I’m mentioning this on my metaphysical/spiritual blog is that I have this “funny feeling” that although I’m going to see Gloria Hawker initially to try to overcome this horrible panic/anxiety disorder I’ve developed…that there is a bigger reason why I’m going to try hypnotherapy with her. You see, Gloria is a contactee/abductee and has written a book about her experiences called “Morning Glory: Diary of an Abductee” and some information about her can be found here: http://truthseekerforum.com/about/gloria-bio-and-more-2/

I met with her tonight and picked up a pretty lengthy questionnaire I need to complete. Talking to her tonight, she said it is possible that there is more to my panic disorder than just the hypoglycemia trigger. I should probably mention that when I lived in the Hollywood Hills back in 1998 I think I was abducted at least twice by two different groups of extraterrestrials. The first abduction was pleasant, but I can’t say that about the second. From what I can remember now, the first group treated me very much as an equal. They took me to a laboratory they had underneath downtown Los Angeles. Yes, I know that sounds crazy and I thought it was crazy, but it’s there. A few years later while at a party I mentioned this to a woman and she very matter-of-factly said, “Oh yes, there is a lab under downtown L.A.” The ETs showed me experiments they were conducting making hybrid babies. I saw babies floating in fluid in vertical test tube type things in this big room. What caught my attention at the time was the fact that normally I am a very emotional person. But, when I was with the ETs being given a tour, I had no emotion at all….zero….my mind functioned purely logically/scientifically. Technically, I should have been horrified at what I was seeing but it didn’t phase me in the least. I was scientifically fascinated.

A week or two after the harmless abduction, another group came for me that to say filled me with gutwrenching fear would be a gross understatement. I knew they were there and I was petrified beyond belief. My soul knew….THIS IS BAD. I laid down on my apartment floor and cried and begged God to help me. I begged that they wouldn’t find me. The next thing I knew, bright lights shone in my door and windows and I blacked out. I don’t recall anything that happened until I woke up the next morning. Needless to say, although I’m a bit scared to find out what happened, I think I need to find out what happened. I also need to find out if there were more events. I do remember a “dream” in which I flew (astral travel?) from Los Angeles to Santa Fe, New Mexico. I saw this upright cane shaped UFO over Santa Fe in the middle of the night. That’s all I recall now. I can’t find the original drawing I did of the UFO but just did a quick rudimentary drawing of what it looked like. It was like nothing you assume UFOs should look like.

In December 2005 when I first lived in Albuquerque (for only 6 months) I accidentally took a picture of a cloaked UFO (to the naked eye). You can see the picture and read my story on Shirley MacLaine’s website. http://shirleymaclaine.com/stories/ufos/story-457

Then there is the ET named Alora who came through a Ouija Board in 2002 and told the group of us that she was Plejaran and that I was to research her people and let them know if I was willing to work with them because they wanted to work with me. She told me my ancestry was Plejaran/Pleiadian. So, needless to say, I’ve got some
extraterrestrial stuff going on. Oh yeah, and I go into trance and channel them at times. Well, I’ve not done that in years, but it’s happened often during a channeling group I attended in California.

So, my hope is that not only can Gloria cure me of this horrible anxiety disorder that is harming my life, but that I might also get some answers regarding my possible abductions and what I’ve been exposed to. I have to admit, just quickly looking at the
questionnaire, I see a heck of a lot of things I can answer “yes” to.

In Light,
Atheria / Carrie