My angelic friend, Diane, is a very gifted trance channel. She lives in CA so is an hour behind me. Karma passed away about 2:30 p.m. Mountain Time, which would be 1:30 p.m. Pacific. While in channeling class, and in trance, Diane asked one of her guides (Maggio) and the spirit of her beloved German Shepherd (Ralphie) to try to reach Karma. Diane is also a gifted artist and drew the b/w picture below. She emailed me saying:
A beautiful little girl.
While I was drawing in class I asked Maggio & Ralphie to connect with Karma. The drawing was done approx. 1:45 LA time. Attached is what I drew (the black & white image) and then I applied some filters in Photoshop. My feeling at the time was Karma with wings running into spirit and catching up to her dear friend Bodhi and embraced by Spirit (the cat above).
With care, Diane
(Please note that Diane does these drawings in trance with her EYES CLOSED. Here is her explanation of what she does: I’m blended. My eyes are closed and I mostly don’t look at the paper. Sometimes I can “feel” what is being drawn, like eyes, nose, etc. so I peek to make sure the pencil is in the right place for an eye, then close my eyes again and keep drawing. I can feel thru my ring and last finger where the pencil should go/move.)
When I saw these drawings, I burst into tears AGAIN. What a gift I will treasure forever! And, that is definitely Bodhi down below…his famous dark bangs and all!
What beautiful imagery and it’s fitting. As Karma’s spirit passed through me, it zoomed up fast toward the ceiling…like she was running. I saw 2 rainbows tonight as confirmation from Karma and Bodhi (rainbow bridge) and when I logged into Twitter to change my background to a memorial for Karma, I just “happened” to have my eyes land on someone’s name listed as Bo Dhi. I am convinced that was Bodhi’s way of letting me know he got my pleas to meet Karma on the Other Side to help her cross over. I just know they are together. My heart still aches and I don’t know when I’ll stop crying, but Diane gave me the most special gift ever and I will be eternally grateful.
Here is a picture of Karma with Bleu and Chakra last February 22nd.
I lost my 1st baby…my beloved 15 year old Karma today, and am heartbroken. She was emaciated (although about 6 lbs. instead of the 5 I thought) and was eating less and less, throwing up, and had a bad seizure this morning. I think she had cancer somewhere since she didn’t have diabetes, thyroid issues, or kidney failure but something was causing dramatic weight loss. She cried all the time, although it didn’t seem to be a cry of pain. She didn’t pass away immediately like Bodhi did, and when she finally took her last breath, I felt her spirit vwoosh through me dramatically. When I looked in her eyes, she was gone. I just pray I did the right thing. It’s so hard. With her passing, a large chunk of my life’s story is over. She, Bodhi, and I went through a lot together. And Karma was especially sensitive to me. If I was depressed or sick, she sensed it and would cling to me. She loved to touch me and would often reach over just to touch me with her paw. Chakra went and immediately started sniffing the empty cat carrier. I hope she is going to be okay. She still misses Bodhi and was very close to Karma. My cats are my children. My cats are my love. I can’t stop crying.
This picture of her was taken when she was healthy on 5/14/11. I took some movies and pictures of her today, but I’d rather remember her looking healthy.
Ever since I lost my sweet Bodhi in September I have hoped he would come to me in a dream. Granted, he visited the house in spirit shortly after passing and then again on my birthday in October, but I’ve not felt him around in a long time and it made me sad. Last night as I lay in bed I affirmed that I wanted to astral travel and clearly remember it. I then did some basic exercises with my breath and focusing on expanding my astral body. I fell asleep before I could get anything dramatic to happen, but I now suspect I did leave my body during the night. At one point I saw Bodhi and he jumped into my lap like he often did when I was at the computer. I wrapped my arms around him and hugged him as much as I could…enjoying the feel of his plump body and thick, soft fur. Then he jumped down onto the floor and, I think…it’s foggy now, morphed into one of my cats that is still alive, Chakra. Chakra and Bodhi were best friends, so that made sense. That brief interaction brought me some peace. I miss him so, but know I’ll be with him again someday. As I am very worried I might lose Karma soon, I pray he greets her on the Other Side when it is her time.
When I woke up this morning after actually getting some sleep for once, I had this “knowing” that Bodhi had moved on. He hung around the house in spirit for over a week, but I truly feel he has left us now for the next leg of his journey on the Other Side. That makes me sad as I liked knowing he was still around, but I understand. I wouldn’t want to hold him back. And I know I’ll see him again someday. I do hope he visits us occasionally though.
Besides the sighting of Bodhi that Chakra clearly had on Friday night (the 28th…see my previous blog), this morning Karma saw Bodhi in the bathtub. Bodhi used to get into the bathtub and start whining until I’d come and turn the water faucet on so he could drink off his paw from the running water. Here is a video I have of him doing just that on September 6th…one of the last videos I have of my baby boy. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uqFSt8pEDUo&list=UU8DHhINOmzC8DlcpuT6R38g&index=1&feature=plcp – Neither Chakra nor Karma ever had an interest in the bathtub faucet…until today.
Karma has been acting VERY depressed and I’ve been worrying about her. When I walked past the bathroom this morning, she was lying on the tile head toward the bathtub/toilet, rather limp. When I walked past a little while later, she was sitting straight up facing the bathtub/toilet. I started to get a funny feeling she was seeing something. A little while later I was in the kitchen and Karma suddenly started howling like she was really upset. I ran to the bathroom to find her inside the tub at the faucet looking like she wanted me to turn it on. I just KNOW she had seen Bodhi in spirit doing his normal tub routine! I turned the water on a bit and she kind of didn’t know what to do with the water and just looked at it trying to figure stuff out. A little while later she starts howling again, so I went back into the bathroom and she was back inside the tub (she’d gotten out after she couldn’t figure out the water deal) just looking at me. That is when I snapped the attached picture.
Karma after she saw Bodhi’s spirit in the tub on 9-30-2012.
Now you have to understand that Karma NEVER in her 14 years has done this. Bodhi is the only cat that loved the tub. I am 100% sure that she saw her brother, who she dearly misses, in the tub and wanted to be with him. So now that Chakra and Karma have been able to see Bodhi in spirit, I want to see him too. I keep asking him to come to me. But, maybe this is all he can do right now. It does make me feel a little better knowing he’s around the house in spirit. I hope he continues to let us know he’s okay.
I have changed my mind and am paying to have Bodhi cremated separately so that I can get his ashes back. I know that our bodies are just clothing for our soul, but I just have to have some part of Bodhi with me. When I die someday, I want to be cremated and be scattered in Taos with my pets.
I have been crying since Tuesday. I have never felt such grief. My cats are the lights of my life. They have given me love during the darkest hours. I keep begging Bodhi to please visit me in spirit, but so far he has not come. I think the sneeze I heard on Tuesday was actually Karma sneezing and not Bodhi in spirit. Maybe my emotional despondency is just too much and it’s stopping him from coming through…I don’t know. But I just want a clear sign from him that he is still with me.
Update: I had written the above yesterday. Tonight something happened!
Chakra was with me in the den watching a Lyme Disease documentary when she suddenly jumped up and got up on her hind legs at the end of the couch staring into the kitchen intently…almost afraid. She CLEARLY saw something in the kitchen and was on alert. I’m sure she saw Bodhi’s spirit. I tried desperately to see him, but couldn’t. I did feel tingling through my body though. I really want to see, feel, or hear Bodhi. I am suspecting my emotionalness is actually blocking him from being able to get through to me. I somehow need to calm down.
I just had to put my beloved boy, Bodhi, to sleep. He had acute kidney failure and although I could have kept him alive longer through dramatic means, I had to accept that it would be more for me than for him. He was suffering. I just pray I did the right thing. My heart aches. I’m inconsolable. I know I’ll see him again someday, but I miss him. While at the vet’s trying to decide what to do and realizing I probably had to euthanize him, I looked up and saw THREE sets of 444’s on the computer screen. Angels were telling me they were in the room. On the drive home, the sun shone through the clouds right over my neighborhood. My cell picture attached doesn’t show it as clearly as you could see the sun’s rays though. As I pulled into the driveway, Karma was sitting in the window waiting. Almost immediately she smelled the empty cat carrier and sat next to it like she was guarding….for a few minutes. And Chakra kept looking up at the ceiling like she saw something in the den. I hope Bodhi visits me in spirit to let me know he’s okay. His ashes will be sprinkled with other cats and dogs on the top of the Sandia Mountains.
The pain is so bad. Bodhi was only 13. I wanted him to live forever…..I can still see his anxious face waiting for me in the window as I came home.
I’m not SURE but as I was sending out this email telling my friends about Bodhi, I could have sworn I heard the quick expressing of air through a clogged nose sound that Bodhi had been doing the past 2 weeks right behind me. I hope it was him. I pray he visits me in spirit. My friend just told me that anyone who passes on holy days (Yom Kippur started at sundown) is a special and extra good soul. That brought me some peace.