While in DeVargas Center in Santa Fe on Saturday I ran into a friend who not only is a great astrologer and search dog trainer, but also does Reiki. She could see on my face how bad my constant headache was and kindly offered to work on me in the mall. Of course I said “Yes please!” Her hands immediately got warm and I felt the tingling of energy flowing when she placed them on my neck. She explained that she also incorporates another form of healing with Reiki that involves working with a square/rectangular grid that always appeared on the patient. Well, “always” except in my case. She said that instead of the usual square or rectangular boxed grid, my neck showed her a circle. Then the circle morphed into a spiral, and then into a labyrinth. She didn’t know what to make of it, but just went with the flow so-to-speak. My gut reaction to the labyrinth image was that it was depicting the complexity of my 22.5+ years of pain hell that over 100 MDs, healers, etc. cannot figure out. I know for a fact that I’ve died by neck injuries in numerous lives, so there’s THAT. Plus I have a real (actually…3 now) neck traumas in this life, with the most recent being last month. I can’t help but feel that there is something I’m not getting, so my guides are getting increasingly aggressive about “whacking me in the head”…maybe until I get to the point where I simply cannot survive in this much pain anymore. It’s not that I’ve not tried to help myself, believe me. I’m not a lazy person by any means. I just can’t figure out the damn message.
Regarding my neck damage, my body has continually either not responded to what doctors have done at all, or had really weird reactions to their attempts to get me out of pain…including sometimes getting worse. I’ll never forget the look of total fear (thinking LAWSUIT) on the face of the head of neurosurgery at UNM a few years ago. He injected a nerve in my head with something…expecting that I’d say, “OMG! The headache and neck pain is gone!” But, nope. Instead, I developed extreme vertigo he could not explain. He shook my hand after one visit with, “I can’t help you. Good luck.” I had a top guy at Cedars Sinai in Los Angeles tell me that they knew I wasn’t faking the pain and signs of nerve damage in my face, but, “We can’t figure out what is causing your symptoms. What we see in MRIs don’t explain the headache and face droop. Try hypnosis.” Gee…thanks a lot, doc. Another top neuro in Santa Monica said I should have symptoms I didn’t display but had symptoms he couldn’t make sense of. He mentioned removing part of my skull but couldn’t promise it would work. Ummm…no thanks!
Then there’s my endocrine system that is SO weird, I had a very experienced endocrinologist in Santa Monica keep sending me back to Cedars Sinai for more blood tests because he thought the results could not be mine. Each time, my hormone values came back weirder and weirder. He finally got so exasperated he said, “I think you’re an alien.” BINGO! Supposedly, it was “impossible” to have my numbers yet have my body do what it was doing. Well…not in Atheria’s world!
When I became severely hypoglycemic in 2010 MDs couldn’t explain it either. Once again, blood test results didn’t match my severe low blood sugar attacks. Only one guy mustered a guess and warned me that I’d probably become diabetic years later. And, yes, my body is trying to become diabetic now…but I’m fighting it. I am not overweight by any means, so even THAT is odd for Type 2.
Then there’s the IBS with idiopathic constipation life-long issue (since birth) where eating tons of fiber does not help at all. I actually do better with less fiber I think. As a kid I’d have to put spoonfuls of wheat bran on all my food and take mineral oil with Senokot, and I’d still struggle. By the way, Aloelax by Nature’s Way is a freaking godsend!
Why I’m even mentioning all of my personal health issues is to talk about how opposite normal I am. When doctor/healer after doctor/healer can’t make sense of how your body behaves, you start to really wonder…”Am I not human? Am I just wearing a human suit?” When a holistic doctor a few years ago muscle tested me for foods, it annoyed him to no end that my body actually LOVED coffee. (I say that with much glee!) His attitude was that coffee was not good for anyone, especially someone with hypoglycemia (at the time) so he begrudgingly said, “Well, don’t increase your consumption.” LOL
As you know, I am a psychic medium and trance medium…often of ETs. Perhaps there’s more to my connection to ETs than I thought. Maybe I am an alien. Years ago while walking around Hollywood, this thought popped into my head, “You don’t belong here. This is not your home. You are not one of these people.” Then there’s the very dramatic reaction I had during a session with Eric Pearl in 1996 where I left my body, traveled through a tunnel, and was plopped out into the universe somewhere. Beings were standing behind me and we were “talking” telepathically. They showed me this star cluster WAY far away and I was hit with indescribably strong, overwhelming homesickness. I started hysterically crying. Eric was asking, “What’s happening?!” But, I was crying so hard I couldn’t speak. I’ll never forget that feeling. The beings with me said, “We know you don’t like it where you are, but we want you to know that we’ll be with you from now on and you will be brought home when you’re done with what you need to do.” I then zoomed back through the tunnel. No wonder I have issues really connecting with places (except Taos) on Earth. This planet just doesn’t feel like home.
If any of my ET friends are reading this, I’m ready to go home now. I’m “over” this place and suffering in pain. Beam me up, Scotty!
Tired in No Man’s Land,