Archive | August 2014

Yes, fairies exist. Lisette makes her appearance.

On August 8th, a group of us who channel got together for our monthly practice session in Rio Rancho, NM. I never know if I’ll be able to go into trance or not, but ended up going into trance twice that evening. The first group that came through told us their collective name was “The Golden Ones” and let me tell you…they were NOT easy to channel! My poor little body hadn’t been through that much strain in a long time. Their energy was very strong and huge and their 10,000 watts coming into my 100 watt body, took a toll. I ended up in major pain from the muscle tension and contorting of my already fragile neck. They did not mean to cause me pain, but that is the chance I take when I agree to do this work. Their energy was interesting to me as it seemed to be a combination of archangel and extraterrestrial. It didn’t feel totally one or the other.

The entire evening was recorded on a friend’s iPhone and I’m awaiting the portion of the tape that has The Golden Ones on it. When I get it, I’ll post it here and on YouTube. You’ll hear a lot of gasping, and struggling as I merge with The Golden Ones. I’m kind of glad we just had audio recordings as to see it may concern some people who aren’t used to what I do…namely my parents. LOL! They are still freaked out over what they witnessed many years ago that was much milder. 🙂

Anyway, after The Golden Ones left, other channelers had other spirits come through. I thought I was done for the evening as I was so exhausted, but toward the end (23 minutes or so into the portion of tape I got and uploaded to YouTube) of our session, my fairy friend, Lisette, showed up! I don’t think I’ve ever channeled her before, but I’m not perfectly sure. Her energy was TOTALLY different than The Golden Ones’ energy…much easier for me to handle and much lighter. It’s always a little weird for me to either hear or see myself do trance work, but listening to the high pitched, fast talking, chirping of Lisette makes me smile. She is fun and playful. I first “met” her in 2002 after Athena Demetrios, channeling Dr. Peebles, confirmed her existence. At that time, I really didn’t believe in fairies, elementals, gnomes, leprechauns, etc., but all that changed after meeting Lisette. She likes to hang out on my left shoulder and plays with my ear. She also tickles me. 🙂 To be honest, I’d not heard from her in quite a while when she showed up on the 8th. Linked below is the audio from August 8th where she appears. It’s worth listening to the whole thing, but Lisette shows up just after the 23 minute mark.

Fairy dust!

Depression took from us a huge light today. :-(

Robin Williams

Robin Williams

It is with an extremely heavy heart and tears in my eyes that I write this post, but I’m being urged to do so by spirit. On this day we lost a truly wonderful person, a shining light, a lovely soul…the extremely gifted and loved, Robin Williams. The world will forever be a sadder place with him not in it.

I have battled depression on and off throughout my life. I know how engulfing the darkness is. I know the feeling that there is no way out. I know the feeling that you are drowning and helpless. Getting through the day is painful. It is extremely…extremely hard to find your way to the light, but it is possible. What kept me going when I was at my worst was the knowing that my life could literally change in an instant. Someone could walk into my life who sent me on a new fulfilling path. I could “accidentally” meet a healer who finally was able to remove my constant physical pain. You never know what tomorrow brings. Fate happens. Miracles happen.

I once heard “Depression is your soul’s way of letting you know you’re on the wrong path.” I think that is very much true. Depression is your soul’s way of screaming to be heard. Although people can have a brain chemical imbalance, etc. I firmly believe that the main cause and cure for depression is spiritual, and that taking antidepressants and talking until you’re blue in the face isn’t what will truly help you. I’m not telling anyone to quit therapy and/or their meds, I’m simply saying that until you address what is causing the darkness at a soul level, you may never have total healing. I know people who’ve been in therapy for literally 30 years and seem no better off to me than they were 30 years ago.

If you’ve ever had a taste of being on the right path, you’ll agree that you suddenly are filled with boundless energy. You feel nourished. You literally glow with life force (and sometimes people will comment on it). There is a feeling of “YES!!” You feel truly alive! You forget to eat. You don’t need to sleep. You are in the zone! When you’re on the wrong path you feel tired, depleted, drained…and depressed. Now, paths oftentimes involve your TRUE work, but being on the right path can (at that point in your life) be something like walking away from an abusive relationship that you endured for too long…knowing that you CAN take care of yourself and you CAN have a better life.

I will say that having no dreams or goals is depressing. But, once again, we come back to the soul. Your soul incarnated in this life to accomplish something, and if you’re not making progress with the lessons and accomplishments you agreed to before you came here, that aimlessness and just floating along with no direction often will trigger depression. Souls are demanding. They will do whatever they need to do to attempt to get you on course.

Go inside and listen to that still small voice within. This planet cannot afford to lose another gifted, wonderful person. Everyone is gifted. Your job is to figure out what your gift is. “Don’t die with your music still in you,” as the wonderful Wayne Dyer has said.

Robin DID use his gifts and brought joy to millions of people. I just wonder if there wasn’t some other inner calling within that got set aside as he dealt with the duties of day to day life. We’ll never know. He seemingly had it all, yet got engulfed in the darkness. We must have compassion for him, and send healing to his family and loved ones. Perhaps we had to lose him to shed more light on the insidiousness of depression. Perhaps with his untimely passing, others will be helped. Maybe THAT is what his final soul purpose was here on Earth. He was so giving, I wouldn’t put it past him. And may he now be out of all pain, happy, and free dancing with the angels…


On a Spiritual Quest in Questa, NM

Every visit to magical Taos, New Mexico triggers something important to happen. I’ve documented in photos how my eyes change color when I’m there and get greener. I’ve blogged about how Taos first called me in 1998 and how during my first visit there I had a life altering spiritual experience at Ojo Caliente. Anyway, during a one day visit 2 weeks ago, just as I was about to head home, I got this urge to walk into an art gallery just off Taos Plaza named Charles Collins Gallery. I’d not had the pull to go into any other galleries the whole time I was there. When I walked in, the woman working in the gallery was busy with other customers, so I just quietly looked around and fell in love with the art. I adore paintings that have things hidden in them…where you have to keep looking to discover faces hidden in mountains and such. Charles’ art is VERY spiritual and beautiful.

I was so quiet in the back of the gallery, that when the other customers left, the woman started locking up the gallery for the day. I said, “I’m back here” or something and caught her by surprise. We started chatting and hit it off, and for some reason (there are never accidents) I mentioned something metaphysical and we got talking about psychic stuff or the power of Taos or something…can’t remember. Then she mentioned that this guy was going to be coming to Questa in 2 weeks who lives in Alabama and channels angels. She said his name was Shaun/Sean/Shawn (I have no idea on the spelling and still don’t have his last name!) and that his wife who was from the Taos Pueblo had been severely damaged due to abuse (I later found out, that abuse also included rape at age 17.) and while begging God to save his wife and heal her, he had offered up himself as payment…which triggered a spiritual experience that changed his life forever. Not only was his wife (Yvonne or Yvette…geeze, I need to get names!) healed, but Shaun started channeling angels and was given the mission to bring the Holy Spirit to others. As the nice lady was telling me this, I suddenly felt strong tingling in my body. I felt “whacked” by my unseen friends and knew that I HAD to drive back up in 2 weeks to witness what Shaun does. All I had to go on was that there was a guy named Shaun who channels angels and that he’d be at Herman Rednick’s old home in Questa (little map drawn out on a slip of paper) at 4 p.m. on August 1st and also 4 p.m. on August 3rd. Keeping in mind that I don’t like remote locations in the middle of nowhere, the location concerned me…but…spirit continued to strongly urge me to go for 2 weeks. I felt I did not have a choice in the matter. My unseen friends can be pushy!

Anyway, I decided to make yesterday a Taos/Questa day (you have to pass through Taos to get to Questa from Albuquerque) and early on I knew something was up when I experienced time warping. Normally, the drive from my Albuquerque house to Taos takes about 2 1/2 hours…and I didn’t drive nonstop this time. I stopped at Trader Joe’s in Santa Fe for some supplies. But, I swear, the long drive felt like only 30 minutes or something! No way did it feel like the long drive it normally feels like. I’d look at the clock on my dashboard and an hour had passed in a blink! And while I was in Taos, where I spent most of the day, the time kept flinging by. I did yoga in the Kit Carson Park and my standard 45-50 minute routine seemed to be over in 5 minutes. It was odd.

I headed out of Taos for Questa a bit early, since I’d never been to The Herman Rednick House before and wasn’t sure that I’d not get lost. Thankfully, not only was the drive very pretty, but I easily found the location. I was told to look for lots of cars, and that made it easier. It was indeed crowded! That’s always a good sign. As I walked up the driveway to the property, WHAMMO! I felt MAJOR tingling through my body and got quite dizzy. A nice lady there to greet people took me by the arm to help me. Needless to say, that place is very powerful and it has fabulous energy! I actually didn’t know there was so much more to the place until I just looked at the website. I only went into the building where Shaun was going to be working.

I was one of the seemingly few newbies. I got the vibe that most of the other people shoved into the crowded room had been following Shaun’s work for a while. I learned that Shaun and his wife pay their own way to New Mexico every few months to hold these angel sessions. And, there were no fees asked for…just donation boxes if you wanted to donate. Now, I don’t mean to imply that people who do spiritual work shouldn’t be paid AT ALL (trust me…I get tired of people feeling I should work for free), but it is a good sign that a teacher doesn’t tell you right off the bat that it’s $500 to come see him/her work. When Shaun came into the room, he was immediately, or almost immediately incorporated with Archangel Michael. I didn’t see any type of dramatic shift like I go through when I channel. Actually, what Shaun does is very different than what I do. It’s hard to explain the difference, but he seems more “there” and can control his body where I can’t. Although he did talk to the group a bit, the majority of the evening was spent doing one-on-one healing and helping sessions with each person in the room. At one point he did get up and go around the room to transfer energy to more than one person at a time. Then Michael left and Archangel Raphael took over. I will say that both had senses of humor, which is always nice. 🙂 It was Raphael who worked on me. I sat in front of him and was instructed to close my eyes. Then, I got pretty dizzy again (and no, it was not my blood sugar acting up) and felt a little like I was swirling around in circles internally. It was similar but not exactly the same as the spiraling around inside myself I experienced years ago when healer Eric Scott Pearl worked on me. He told me I could open my eyes and explained that what he had just done was a cleansing…and that now it was time to be touched by the Holy Spirit (I think that’s the term was he used…it’s hard to recall.) I don’t remember if it was the moment I sat down in the chair or after the clearing, but Raphael said to me, “You have a lot of questions.” I laughed and said, “Yep.” Boy do I have questions. He said that since I had so many questions, and since I had to head back home on my 3+ hour drive (which ended up being longer due to severe storms and scary driving conditions), he would visit me ongoingly to help me find answers. He then sent spiraling energy into my right palm. He said that when I felt circles of energy in my right palm, that meant he was with me.

During the time that I was there watching the angels work, I witnessed some people be very affected to the point where they couldn’t hardly walk and needed help, or were totally zoned out, etc. And no, they weren’t faking it. They had no one there to impress. I left there with a book to read about Shaun and Yvonne’s story titled “Something Bad Happened and I Can’t Feel God Anymore” (written in prayer by Medicine Road) and impressed with the people I met. No matter what happens, the location an experience was definitely loving and positive. I’m curious to see what WILL happen to me over the next few weeks. I will say, that although it was a long and scary drive home, the degree of tiredness I was hit with was overwhelmingly abnormal for me. I mean, think falling asleep at the wheel kind of exhaustion. I think only the hazardous driving conditions kept me alert. I pretty much passed out once I got home around 10:15 – 10:20 p.m.

Since I don’t think Shaun has a website or anything, I did make sure to ask how I could find out about future visits to New Mexico. A nice lady at the event took my email address so that I can get notifications. I’ll post them here since it’s totally by word of mouth that anyone can find out about Shaun’s work.

I was told in a “dream” a few days ago (clearly it was a message) that New Mexico IS my home and this is indeed where I need to be. I’ve been questioning it, but know the message was/is correct. There is truly something special about this state (and especially Northern NM) that draws people here for spiritual growth. I once heard that the seeming desolate/loneliness of much of the state forces people to go inside to grow on a spiritual level. I kind of suspect that’s true. That being said, there IS such beauty here. I’ve discovered gorgeous vistas lately I’ve never seen before…SE of Taos, and now NW of Taos.