I will admit that I’ve been upset that so far I’ve not gotten any signs from Karma letting me know she’s okay on the Other Side. Bodhi walked into the kitchen 3 days after he died last year and then showed up in the bathroom 2 days after that…and again on my birthday (rubbed against my leg). Well, all that may have changed!
For the past few days, I’ve been hearing noises in my house that sound like they are coming from the bedrooms when I’m in the kitchen or den. Lots of clash-bang stuff like things are falling or being knocked over. Bleu has often been playing in the backyard during this or has been with me. But Chakra was back in one of the bedrooms. I just attributed it to her (although never finding anything knocked over SHOULD have been a clue). Also, 2-3 times she’s come tearing through the house from one of the bedrooms like she’s being chased and is playing or something. I will say that THAT started to make me wonder if something was going on. She’s been hanging out in my bedroom A LOT since Karma passed. Sometimes I’ll go looking for her, and she’ll be sitting or standing in my bedroom with this funny look on her face like I busted her doing something or that I interrupted something. It’s hard to explain the look, but I know my kids. After what happened around 4 a.m. today, I’m convinced she’s been playing with the spirits of Karma and Bodhi, or at least one of them.
I’ve not been sleeping well AT ALL for a long time, and it’s been increasingly worse…where lately the tiny bit I sleep is full of nightmares. Anyway, I barely slept again last night, but around 4 a.m. I was definitely fully awakened by hearing an animal thumping around and frantically clawing a door trying to get out of a closet or cabinet or something. I looked over and Chakra wasn’t next to me like she has been (since Karma died, Chakra has been clingy). I thought that although I could have sworn she’d been in bed with me initially, that maybe I’d imagined it and she’d never been there because I’d accidentally locked her in the closet or something. It wouldn’t be the first time. I went closet to closet and opened up the bathroom cabinets (where Karma used to lock herself in and freak out, see: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7fuQ0UvlIas ) but still no Chakra. When I came back into my bedroom, I noticed her tail sticking out from under the bed. THEN it suddenly dawned on me that I’ve got cat ghosts! Now, because Karma loved to hide in the bathroom cabinets and then not be able to get out and would claw and claw, I’m assuming it’s her. But, it is certainly possible that Bodhi is also around and playing with Chakra since during 1 of the 2 dream visitations I’ve had with him, when he jumped down off my lap and started to walk away, he morphed into Chakra.
Now, the hard part is that both Bodhi and Karma need to move on…but I don’t really want them to go. I miss my babies so much and it is bringing me some comfort knowing they’re around. So, I’m not sure what to do at this point. I’m curious to see if more stuff will happen, or if it’ll slowly stop happening as they move into another level.