If God wants me to do this work, I really need healing…

Tonight’s blog is going to be venting. I am so sick and tired of battling my health…and now it’s gotten to the point AGAIN where I’m so depleted I can’t do the work I’m here to be doing. I’ve not slept in about 4 days. My 17+ year headache has been BAD since yesterday. I’m exhausted beyond measure. I’m tired of constant pain. I’m tired of hypoglycemia. I’m just tired. I was supposed to work as a medium tonight for our weekly online Spiritualist Church service and besides hearing the song “Send in the Clowns” nonstop and getting Florida, Bernard, and Daniel, I was lost and floundering. I couldn’t make sense of anything because my head hurt so bad and I’m so tired and depleted. And then….with perfectly inappropriate timing, the Arcturians showed up and decided that they wanted me to channel them. Needless to say, that’s not really appropriate for a Spiritualist Church service. My heart started to race and I got a couple of other subtle signs they were entering my vibration, but I didn’t cooperate and I think they even realized I was just too weakened to be of service tonight and left. I’m so frustrated with my body. What is the point of being given the gifts I’ve been given if you can’t fully use them because of your health?!

😦
Carrie

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14 thoughts on “If God wants me to do this work, I really need healing…

  1. I’m sorry, Carrie. I wish I knew the answer to that one. I’m having my own little meltdown myself. I just don’t know about anything anymore. It’s been that kind of day. 😦
    Putting my major issues aside, I was thinking of a small one, how my own foodie life would be so much easier if I could eat cheese. Just that one thing would help so much… with food costs, with meal ideas, with eating out with people…I would just like for my body to be able to have cheese again.

      • I can’t do gluten, dairy, alchohol, seafood, and many starches, myself. I barely eat meat, so my options are limited. That’s why I was saying that if I could just have dairy back, it would make things just a little bit easier.

  2. Carrie,

    While being sick, it is often difficult to understand why you are to help others when you are so down. Demanding an answer from the other side does not always produce the needed response. Therefore, give yourself permission to heal, see yourself well (cured) and drink lots of water to flush out the toxins causing the headaches. You are given the gifts and the problems so you can have a complete picture of what others are going through. Don’t forget, having the gifts does not guarantee a problem free life.

    You are not alone in this fight, lot’s of us understand and support your efforts.

    • Tom, it’s not toxins and it’s not headaches. I have had a 24 hour a day headache since 10/1/1995 because of neck damage. I have not had a break in over 17 years. Add my newer blood sugar issue onto that, and I’m really worn down. Why give me the ability I have if I can’t use it because of my health?

  3. Carrie, I’m concerned with all the thought you have put into this issue. It obviously consumes a lot of your time, as it probably would me, considering the amount of pain you are in. Have you done any work with a remote healer? Reiki or any of that other stuff?

    • I’ve gone to almost every doctor and healer imaginable. 😦 It’s complicated by the fact that I have been killed by my neck in numerous lives. I am trying myofascial therapy on Friday. Healer Eric Pearl changed my life in 1996 but even he couldn’t get my neck to budge.

      Yeah, those crazy Arcturians. They just show up whenever! 🙂

      • Wow! Very interesting to have been killed in the neck in past lifetimes and still have such problems with it. I will be following to see if you get any results. I figured you had tried all of that, but didn’t hurt to ask. Have you had any hypnotists offer up a reason why this would follow you from life to life? There surely has to be a reason. Maybe all you have to do is make it through this life, neck in tact, and you will be good to go in the next life. Not so helpful now, though.

      • No they haven’t offered up anything. There is clearly more trauma I need to release and there must be something I am to learn that I’m not understanding yet. Louise Hay says the neck has to do with flexibility…and I can be stubborn.

      • Well I am sure there is nothing that I could offer that you haven’t already done or thought of, but I will send some good vibes your way. I think it would have to have something to do with the unreleased trauma. I know someone who does remote healing, if you are interested.

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