I found out some news late in the day that re-broke my heart regarding an ex I admit I’m not over. (Now I know why one of his ex’s that I knew about popped into my head strongly earlier today.) Well, he meant something to me…but it seems that I was just a convenient woman until he could move onto the next. What makes it so hard to get over him is the major soul connection we had and our history that went back hundreds of years. I can’t post that many details online, but a life that we had hundreds of years ago where he left me while I was pregnant was eerily mimicked in this life (except the pregnancy part, thank God). The dynamic of our current life situation was exactly like it was long ago. When I found out about it, it even freaked me out and I’m not easily freaked. I have gone over it and over it and over it trying desperately to figure out what I was supposed to learn from the experience of him doing to me again, what he did long ago. Quite frankly, I can’t see any lesson in it or any good that has come from it. As I was driving home from work and asking God "WHY did this have to happen again?! What am I to learn from being hurt by him all over again?!" all of a sudden Justin Timberlake’s What Goes Around came on the radio. I’m writing this post to re-confirm that our guides are always there and listening. I know that song was a sign from spirit that karma will indeed bite him in the ass and that he won’t get away with it unscathed. For those of you who don’t know the song, here it is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TOrnUquxtwA
My birthday was on the 20th and in the morning, Karma kept getting into the bathtub again and crying. Keep in mind that she never did that until after Bodhi died…but he used to do it all the time. I’m kind of getting suspicious that not only is she seeing him in spirit, but that he is influencing her behavior, almost like he’s taking her over. Anyway, the day before I had downloaded the app “Ghost Radar” onto my new Android phone. I ran to get my phone and turned on GR to see if it would pick up anything in the bathroom. Sure enough, GR started signalling that there were 1-3 spirits in the room at various distances. I say 1-3 because it would vary. I saw green and red dots on the phone’s screen (red means the spirit is closer than green). Now, a skeptic could say, “Well, that doesn’t prove anything” but then it got a bit more awesome. The GR software then started typing out and verbalizing words. Some of the words I couldn’t figure out the meaning behind, but the second word that came out was PROTECTION. That made sense to me! Also, the word MALE. Out loud I mentioned that it was my birthday, and all of sudden GR said GIFT and I was elated! Then, I clearly felt warmth hit my right lower leg/ankle and the word BREATHING popped up on the phone. By then I was totally excited! I have been wanting to feel Bodhi since his September 25th passing but hadn’t yet. But this time I felt him with no questions. Other words like BIRDS came up on the phone and Bodhi, being a cat, used to like to watch birds. Sure, all this can be dismissed, but I truly feel that Bodhi came to visit me on my birthday to reassure me that he’s okay on the Other Side. It was the best birthday present I could have gotten.
In the middle of the night, I was startled by an unexpected clear, LOUD, male voice that said something to me. I remember thinking to myself that what he said seemed kind of odd and random. By the time I woke up hours later I had completely forgotten what the voice said! Argh! Why didn’t I write it down?! My clairaudience is my strongest skill, but I’ve not had actual external voices happen in many years. In the span of 2-3 weeks years ago, as I was in that receptive half awake/half asleep state in the wee hours of the morning I first heard a man’s voice say to me, “Can I hug you?” and then weeks later a little boy say, “Hi beautiful.” I wonder if with hearing Bodhi’s little spirit meow has triggered something? I hope so. I feel the need to get more in touch with the Other Side. I’ve let the material world take over too much.
When I woke up this morning after actually getting some sleep for once, I had this “knowing” that Bodhi had moved on. He hung around the house in spirit for over a week, but I truly feel he has left us now for the next leg of his journey on the Other Side. That makes me sad as I liked knowing he was still around, but I understand. I wouldn’t want to hold him back. And I know I’ll see him again someday. I do hope he visits us occasionally though.