Archive | June 2012

Your Soul’s Gift

I need to say:  I love “coincidences”!  Because, guess what?  Coincidences AREN’T.

On Friday I was talking with a friend and explaining how I believe (from what I’ve been taught and what feels true) that before we incarnate, we meet with our spirit guides on the Other Side and chart out our next life’s major lessons and goals.  She was not familiar with that concept, and I had to explain how once we incarnate we forget what we agreed to (and I think I was drunk when I agreed to this life and the hell I’ve gone through) and although we have free will and can kind of veer off path occasionally, we really are stuck with the major life lessons we set up for ourselves to deal with.  So, even if you veer off path, those lessons will find some way to work themselves back into your experience.

On Sunday I got the urge to go to the final day of “A Gathering of Healers” being held at Heavenly Lodge in Tijeras, NM.  I hadn’t yet been through the Tijeras area and used it as an excuse to take a little road trip out into nature.  Firstly, Tijeras is very pretty.  I loved the area.  Secondly, Heavenly Lodge had wonderful energy and was soooooo peaceful.  The owner, Michelle, showed me around and was very hospitable.  Thirdly, while talking with the woman leading the healing event, Shirley, I mentioned that I’ve always been fascinated by life-between-life hypnotic regression and exploration and I think I mentioned something about charting incarnations.  She then said, “I have a book out in my car I’d like to give you.”  Well, the book was “Your Soul’s Gift” by Robert Schwartz, published this year.  And, guess what?  It’s about how we as souls meet with our teachers and guides before we incarnate into our next life and plan out the major goals and life lessons we need to experience to continue our growth as souls!  Ding!  Ding!  Ding!  Someone obviously wants me to learn more about this.  I started reading the 500+ page book last evening and it’s fascinating!  I’m a slow reader so I’m only up to page 114 or so (but I did have to work today) but I can’t stand to put it down.  It’s not often that a book truly engulfs me.  I would highly suggest this book to anyone who wants to understand how our growth through various lives works.  I’ve also learned that karma is much more complicated than I thought.  It’s so involved, I can’t even explain it here.  You’ll have to read the book. 🙂 And no, I’m not getting a commission.

I have always believed that the bad things that happen in our lives have a spiritual purpose.  Now, by reading some of the true stories in this book, I’m SURE there is a reason for everything.  And those bad situations that keep repeating over and over….ummmmm….HELLO!!  Pay attention!  There is something you need to learn in order to stop it from happening again.  Look for the deeper lesson in everything.  I have known for quite some time that as horrendous as my 16.5+ years of constant head pain due to a stubborn neck injury has been, if I had not been injured on 10/1/1995 I never would have met Eric Pearl (well….spirit probably would have found some way for us to connect) and Eric changed my life forever and sent me on a spiritual path I might not have walked down had I not been desperately looking for help with my health.  Of course, the injury can leave now!  I’m on the path already.  It’s time for me to heal!  But wait, maybe there is still more to learn from my neck hell…..hmmmmm……

In Light,


Psychics and blood sugar issues…

I went to a meeting of the Rio Grande Ghost Hunters group I belong to tonight and my body suddenly started having all the symptoms of a low blood sugar attack (I’m hypoglycemic) while watching video tapes of footage the group took on a ghost hunt last weekend.  I didn’t even put two and two together that the footage could be making me sick until someone else commented on it…and I improved somewhat after leaving the room.  I know I’m empathic, but geeze!  Just watching ghost footage affected me?!  At one of the members’ homes many weeks ago where we were doing a mini ghost investigation, I suddenly got a massive headache and had to leave.  I found out later that I had been sitting on the same spot on the couch where his wife had passed away last year and another psychic member of the group saw her spirit giving me the evil eye.  I had been sitting near her husband and talking to him and I guess she got jealous.  Anyway, I am clearly very physically affected by ghosts.  One of the tapes we watched earlier tonight, I suddenly started tingling strongly and all the hairs went up on my arms….just from a tape!

Anyway, I got to talking to a nurse in the group who is sensitive and also hypoglycemic and then I thought the leader of the group is diabetic and psychic and I’ve known quite a few other psychics who are diabetic.  Is there something about being psychic and having a messed up endocrine system?  The consensus was YES…that having a psychic ability puts so much strain on your whole system it can blow your endocrine system.  Great…..just great…..UGH.


In tune :-)

This is a quick blog today.  I just wanted to mention that some friends of mine in Washington State who I’ve not talked to in ages popped into my head totally out-of-the-blue yesterday morning so strongly that I made a mental note to send them an email and see how they are doing.  Well, a couple of hours later one of the two called me.  She said I had popped into her head. 🙂 I just love when that happens.



Ask, and ye shall receive…the Monroe Institute & acting?

As those around me know, I have been going through some serious depression lately.  I have been feeling very lonely (for good reason…I’m alone most of the time and have few friends in Albuquerque), lost, directionless, unloved, BORED to death, and I’ve had no interest in anything anymore for the most part.  I quit going to CNM part-time for a degree I had no interest in but one which my employer would pay for.  I quit going to acupuncture.  I’ve been quitting a lot.  I have felt like I’m just biding time, waiting to die.  Doesn’t that just sound chipper?  Anyway, days ago, I begged God/Great Spirit to please give me some direction…bring me my true work…bring me something to get excited about.  I asked for help.

Well, totally out-of-the-blue on Tuesday I got a invitation to join an acting class.  I’ve not been in an acting class in a very long time.  But, something about the out-of-the-blue nature of the email and the guy who is in charge of organizing the class for the acting teacher made me feel good about it.  I’ve not committed to taking the class yet due to cost, but I may join for a while just to get back into doing something I used to love to do.  More importantly, because of that email, I saw a link to some other sites and clicked on the site and when I looked at the casting notices, I saw an ad for a SAG short film.  The casting director was looking for a busy-body cat lady (OMG, perfect casting!) for one scene in the film and asked actors to make a video of themselves doing the scene which would then be uploaded to YouTube and linked to the Facebook page for the film.  I thought, “What the heck?  I’ve not acted in a long time, but I’ll make a video and see what happens.”  I submitted my video audition Tuesday night and was told on Wednesday that they liked my scene and have a callback for the role tomorrow afternoon!  Now, whether or not I get the acting job, what this has done is triggered me to want to get back into the acting biz.  I set aside a large part of who I am years ago when I quit the business due to being a woman of a certain age and not getting anywhere.  I am fully convinced this SAG film (and the acting class, possibly) were sent from my friends on the Other Side/God in answer of my plea for direction and help.  I finally have an interest in something again.

But things get weirder.  Today, I got a message on Facebook from a guy I didn’t know inviting me to The Monroe Institute’s Albuquerque Meditation Group…and he mentioned that they needed a chapter leader for Albuquerque.  Now, for those who don’t know about the work of Robert Monroe, you MUST look him up and read some of his books on astral travel/out-of-body exploration.  His books are fascinating!  In the late 1990’s, I really wanted to learn how to astral travel at will (after reading his books and the books by William Buhlman) and tried every night for days and days to trigger myself to leave my body according to some simple exercises you were supposed to do.  Well, I’m not known for my patience, and when nothing happened after 2 weeks or so, I gave up and forgot about it.  A couple of days later as I was drifting off to sleep, I suddenly felt myself sinking through my sofa bed toward the floor.  I went through the mattress!  But, because I felt a sinking feeling instead of what I assumed should be a rising feeling, I totally panicked.  The moment that I felt fear, BOOM!  I was yanked back up into my body quickly.  I had felt fear because I thought I was dying as no one had said that sometimes when you start to leave your body for astral travel, the feeling can be like you are sinking.  If I’d known that I probably wouldn’t have been afraid and it would have worked.  I was so mad at myself for messing it up.

I have always wanted to go to The Monroe Institute in Virginia, but didn’t have the time and money to go for an extended period of time.  I cannot help but feel that this offer to join an Albuquerque Monroe group and possibly be the leader is also divine intervention.  I learned long ago, then when doors unexpectedly show up and easily open…I need to walk through them.  I do greatly miss the group of women I used to meet with every Tuesday in Los Angeles where we practiced channeling.  I literally verbalized to a couple of people lately how much I miss that weekly practice session.  Perhaps something similar will come from a group of people gathering here in Albuquerque to meditate using resources to alter brain waves that Robert Monroe developed.  Here is a link to the Monroe Institute site where you can listen to some FASCINATING recordings of people in trance states induced by Robert’s sounds/equipment:

I think being able to research from out-of-body and get answers to life’s mysteries would be awesome!

What I’d like to get across from this blog is that when you ask for help, and then weird unexpected doors open for you…PAY ATTENTION.  Things come into your life, especially when out-of-the-blue, for a good reason.  Call it divine intervention.  Call it guidance.

In Light,


Trust – Channeled Message 6/14/2012

Trust, and all will be shown to you.  Believe, not in the hereafter but in the now…which is the hereafter if we want to play with terminology.  For what is there is here.  It just takes a change in perception.  As you open one door and walk through it, you can open a window into the next dimension.  There are many layers of dimensions on top of one another and only separated by the vast consciousness of space and time.  You are part of that consciousness.  Space is within you, not “out there” somewhere.  The immensity of what is within you most would not be able to comprehend.  Once you leave the physical body, you will understand more, but it is a continuous growth process.  We wanted to title this message “Trust” because trust plays a huge role in your evolution and growth.  We ask you to trust us, yet, who are we?  We really want you to trust YOURSELVES…for all the truths and answers lie within.  Do not listen to anyone outside yourself.  Who knows you better than your soul?  Well, maybe your spirit guides, but they are also a part of your soul.  Most think spirit guides are totally separate beings, but you will be surprised to find out that they are actually your higher selves (to use a term many of you are familiar with).  Because so many people are insecure and feel they must look to another higher being for guidance, we’ve had to trick you into thinking your guidance is coming from someone else…when the reality is, the guidance is coming from you.  Now isn’t THAT empowering?  We will admit that your spirit guide/higher self is a part of your soul that is a bit further along the path.  You see, your soul has many parts and not all of it is in one place/time.  We stress again just how HUGE you all are…how LIMITLESS you all are.  This message is meant to empower you, not to give you swelled egos, but to let you know that you have access to great amounts of knowledge if you will go inside and ask and listen…and trust.  With that, we say good night.

If God wants you to be with someone, it WILL be arranged!

This is a true story I heard today from a woman around my age that should be turned into a movie or something.  It’s a perfect example of soulmates and how fate/destiny plays out.  As Michael Newton would say (“Destiny of Souls” and “Journey of Souls”), there is no point in stressing out about whether or not you are going to meet someone and fall madly in love.  If it’s meant to be, it WILL be.  It’s written in the stars…

In a nutshell, someone had set this guy up with her older sister on a blind date when she was 16 and her sister was 17. The sister didn’t want to go, so by default, the guy took her out. They dated for a while and then he went into the military. She flew to see him in Africa, but he had gotten sent out 2 days earlier! She did end up seeing him in Geneva, Switzerland later. When he got out of the military, they got engaged and then she broke it off because he was extremely financially irresponsible and they weren’t living in the same states. She ended up marrying someone else for like 10 years and got divorced. She looked the guy up to see if he was single/married and he was single and they got back together and got engaged again. Then, she ended it again for some good reason (I think location problems were a part of it). She married someone else and he also married someone else. Fast forward another 9 years or so, and she got divorced again (had one daughter with this guy) and he had also gotten divorced. She looked him up again, and they’ve been happy together ever since and are finally marrying each other soon! She said that her soulmate’s dad told her that he had never stopped loving her. She said that they never fight. Everything is easy (as it should be when you are with the right person). He lets her control the money since he is still bad with money. LOL

I need to remind myself of this, by the way. 🙂



Rio Grande Ghost Hunters…I’m committing by buying equipment.

I belong to a relatively newly formed ghost hunting group called “Rio Grande Ghost Hunters” here in Albuquerque, New Mexico.  Here is the Meetup page for it:

Anyway, I’m one of the official psychic mediums for the group.  Due to my blood sugar problem, though, I’ve been hesitant to REALLY commit to the group by investing money in ghost hunting equipment, etc., but after tonight’s meeting I stopped off at Walmart and bought this digital voice recorder:


Olympus VN-7200 digital voice recorder

The group is going on a weekend excursion June 16th-17th but I am not going as it’s a very remote location and with my health issue, I don’t feel safe being far away from medical care should I need it.  My hypoglycemia sucks butt.  I do plan on taking part in all ghost investigations around Albuquerque, Santa Fe, etc. though…and…HOPEFULLY I’ll get my blood sugar under good control soon so that I can go on the investigations that are out in the middle of nowhere.  I can’t tell you where the group is going, but the places they’ll be investigating sound great!

Anyway, I am indeed committing to helping when and where I can.  I also plan on using the digital voice recorder for some of my channeled sessions.  It should help me stay in trance if I don’t have to type what’s coming through and can just speak it out loud.  In Los Angeles, I belonged to a group of people who were all channels and got together once a week to practice.  I really miss that.  I wish there was a group here.

I may also try some straight on spirit communication here at home and see what happens.  I have “accidentally” caught voices on tape before.  I have one old cassette from when I was a kid that has voices for a full 30-45 minutes on each side!  I have no idea when I made the tape, but I recognize my childhood handwriting that simply says, “Eerie possessed tape”.

We’ll see what happens!

In Light,